Fuck it.
Sarcasm, r20.
It's dexies/dexamphetamine/dextroamphetamine.
The other day, she asked (again) for some of mine and claimed it was because she had run out. I offered more than once that we could go to the pharmacy to get the new script filled and was turned down each time. There's no way I'm going to give her some of mine because she already seems paranoid and close to a psychotic break. I also don't trust her to pay me back, and unlike her I do make sure to never run out.
I tried explaining that with any medication, if possible always fill scripts early so as not to run out. This did not make any sense at all to her and was not something she could understand and acknowledge. She just didn't accept it and remonstrated that there was no need to get a script filled when she still had some of the tablrts from the previous script. That doing that made no sense. Okay.
It was like talking to a stubborn toddler. Conversations went around in circles.
She's probably been restricted to staged supply and can only get enough for a week at a time. It happens a lot in Australia to people on dexies.
There seems to be a tolerance(?) and she told me that:
She hates taking them and wants to stop
The dexies make her feel flat
She needs to take more than prescribed to think clearly
That they don't trigger impulsive behaviour, which she also claims is a problem she has.
That she needed some of mine so she could take care of something important later that day
But that the same dose she wanted to "borrow" from me was for the next morning
When we spoke yesterday, she kept telling me everything she'd told me the day before and recently, as if we hadn't spoken in months.
She's been like this for a while. On general issues, it's as if the last ten to fifteen years haven't happened. I could tell that there were times she was consciously lying, and other times when she was making no sense that what she was saying made complete sense to her.
She suffers from insomnia, so I casually mentioned that another friend using dexies for ADHD takes seroquel at night to help with sleep issues and she told me that she won't even take paracetamol for a headache. Um, no paracetamol but taking more dexies than prescribed most days is okay?
I suggested to her a long time ago that she approach her doctor for a higher dose due to tolerance and was shut down pretty quick.
It's a sad situation. This is a person who used to be smart and together. Who still can be sometimes. Who is not at all a mug-cradler or a frau.
Reading the responses here and typing this out, I now doubt everything she's told me.
Flame away.