My birthday. I did consider suicide

I don't understand. Why did you want to commit suicide?

Happy Birthday! Every day brings something different.

I’m sorry, OP. What is going on?

r1 i have nothing. i'm 56 and haven't had any love for so long. Also, my family and I don't talk any more. there's more. but i've had a lifetime of things.

MURIEL - Remember the day when such OP's posts would be deleted immediately?

Suicide talk doesn't belong here. From a psychiatric case or from a troll.

OP, I love you. Because you are a human being, and because you're in crisis, and as a follower of DL, I assume you must have other lovable traits.

Don't ever harm yourself. Find people, like your FB birthday friends, who know your worth.

Amen. R6.

thank you, r5. today has been a difficult day and i've wanted to thank those that have been there for me. honestly, sometimes I've thought about ending it.

i just wanted to let DL know you've helped.

Fuck you, R5. Were all of us going through this together. And it’s hard. Really hard.

I’m proud of you, OP, for resisting the urge, for coming here to share the desire to be less alone.

Please find yourself a therapist. Right away. It’s a new calendar year. And a new year for you. This is the year where you take control. It’s going to require a lot of work — work you don’t think you have the energy to do. Reaching out, nurturing the relationships you do have, forging new ones, a lot of therapy, maybe even group therapy (which is actually great — you’ll forge connections with people who are also struggling and learn from them), probably some exercise (the most under-used anti-depressant), some time away from booze, some journaling, some mediation, quite probably medication.

But it really can get better — but not without you joining the fight.

Thanks for sticking around.

And happy birthday.

We need you OP. 2025 is going to be a doozy and we need our little DL community in full force! Have you ever tried any antidepressants? I'm on one and it has been so good for me. Is it worth a conversation with a doctor. So many pets need adopting and having a lovable little munchkin running around the house is wonderfully joyful. Peace to you

and r9 also applies to r6 as well.

I have tears down my cheeks and that doesn't happen often.

Happy Birthday OP!

Q: How many Capricorns does it take to change a lightbulb?

A: Capricorns don’t have time for these silly jokes

Capricorns...there is something there.

But we need ourselves to figure out whether this particular bulb works for this space.

Some people will do anything for attention

Why not go to the bar and meet people?

Honestly, not trying to be a MARY thread. I just wanted to tell you that you've been helpful

Is the OP dead yet

Yeah! What R16 said!

R15, get herpes.

Be as MARY as you need to, babe. It’s your birthday!

HA! I’m already riddled with herpes r20…but you won’t find me whining about it on DL for attention

Be as MARY as you need to be, babe! It’s your day!

Since so many people have fucked you that you’re “riddled” with herpes, perhaps it’s time you fuck yourself, you rancid cunt.

R15 is, for her protests, attention-seeking.

OP? Just smoke copious amounts of pot, silly!

thanks, DL

R24 no, I shall live another day, to spread herpes and hard truths.

R25 nah you precious little thing. But thanks for playing.

The OP is skilled troll and he’s got you all dancing like fat gullible puppets on his strings.

OP, you deserve to be, to enjoy, to experience and live this life you have been given. We’re not and can’t be in your shoes, I know; and I respect your feelings and emotions. Just know that everybody deserves a chance at getting over those difficult times, situations, crises, including you. I’m rooting for you and bet you can do it. Happy Birthday to you, and I hope it brings happiness and positivity to you that you might not see it expect at the moment. You have a right to that!

Let's be honest. It's not cool to tell people online that you're considering suicide (plus, it's your birthday). Call 911. It does seem manipulative.

The herpetic shitcunt can’t help but respond, proving my point. She needs attention. All of it. Sad.

Oh Facebook and social media (I guess I need to admit that Datalounge is also guilty) is not helpful, not comforting, not, in fact, social. Its impact is to negatively affect our thinking, especially about our worth, our place in the community of humans. By definition your will NEVER receive enough "Happy Birthday!" greetings on Facebook.

One receives 10, and immediately one considers "well, why didn't X person also wish me well?" Social media is designed to make you feel something missing that only social media can address. Trees, walking outside, stretching, music, a pleasant aroma, a list of things to be grateful for, a beautiful young man bagging at the grocery store, a professional basketball game, a museum.... none of those will make you feel less worthy, more alone, sad.

Not to be a Pollyanna, but what an important thing you did by sharing your birthday experience here. Many can relate.

Why are you seeking attention in replying to my syphilis ridden posts r31?

Let’s make a deal..:.you stop posting your senile hysteria and I’ll stop posting to out you in your place.

Herpes. Not syphilis. Poor thing can’t even follow her own thread. Yet, she refers to me as senile. Bless her heart.

Out me in my place?

Oh, dear.

I didn't expect any response.

I care about you all. and I am going through my 56th birthday.

You have all been supportive

Attention seeker ^

Sad

Post R36 was for that obese biddie at r34

You a driving the OP to suicide by derailing his thread r34

But you don’t care. It’s all about you isn’t it.

I LOVE that the herpetic cunt can’t stop replying! Keep proving the point that YOU’RE the attention-seeker.

Or, as you might say, “your”.

r36 maybe i do want a little. you're not wrong about that.

I'm just trying to let forth

There’s nothing wrong with that, OP. We all want and, frankly, NEED attention at times. Particularly on one’s birthday, it’s nice to be reminded you matter to people.

R38 is even more an attention seeker than the OP

Congrats

Are you trans? That would explain it all.

I love suicide posts because I don't feel like I’m the only one so thanks. I’m alone too and older than you but I’m sure a terminal illness is on the horizon so I’ll just wait a bit a decide later. How were you going to do it?

OP? On my last birthday, I was flying "up Home" to see my sister, who died of cancer (that was only diagnosed three weeks prior) five days later.

Suck it up.

Oh Please -get in line.

It accuses others of derailing a thread while dragging the trans community, obesity, and chancres into discussion about the OP’s birthday, loneliness, and suicidal ideation.

Plus, she can’t stop responding — after accusing others of attention seeking behavior.

The irony is delicious.

Poor thing. I repeat: bless her heart.

R43 seems like fun.

You just won’t stop r45

Stealing the spotlight always.

If you were as moral as you think you are, then shut up, because no one cares what you have to say and I won’t comment and let this troll’s thread go into a death spiral.

But you won’t, because you’re obsessed with having the last word, like querulous senile obstinate people do.

R9, showing how she copes now that she's defended her right to Frau-out over her own psychiatric issues.

OP, it's not you. It's what topics such as this bring out in otherwise slack-jawed burger-gobbling victims.

That's not you.

Happy Birthday. I'm 70 and heard from two people on my own birthday. No boo boos here.

I am!

And I eagerly await your next post. Because it’s actually you that wants the attention and can’t handle that you’ve yet to “out” me in my place! It’s all so delicious watching you decompensate.

Keep proving my point!

“ But you won’t, because you’re obsessed with having the last word, like querulous senile obstinate people do”

Are. Not do.

But keep calling me senile!

Yawn 🥱 ^

See??!!!!

I love it!

“ If you were as moral as you think you are, then shut up, because no one cares what you have to say and I won’t comment and let this troll’s thread go into a death spiral.”

Says she won’t comment but continues to do so!

lol 😆 ^

“If you were as moral as you think you are, then shut up, because no one cares what you have to say and I won’t comment and let this troll’s thread go into a death spiral.“

This sentence runs in almost as much as you do, dear. And it would appear that all you have left now is emojis.

Oh, dear.

💤. ^.

Mmmmmm. Delicious.

I claim the victory. With ease.

I'm ancient and feel happy and surprised when my birthday comes along.

I win, you slqck jawed dipshit

You don’t care about the OP at all, as you proved many times in the last hour.

You have, with my assistance, humiliated yourself.

My work here is done.

🖕🏼

Op, maybe it’s time to do the things you’ve dreamt of: see Paris, Rome, the Amalfi coast, Santorini, the Great Wall of China (a staggering experience), Japan, South America.

Isn’t R59 cute? With her rage-induced spelling errors! And the way she’s been reduced to communicating via emoji!

So CUTE!

Op, if you’re at the point that you have consider suicide, why not change your life to be who you really are, no holds barred! You don’t have to give a shit anymore.

Do what you want to do. Act like you want to act. Fuck it all. You’re likely to find much joy in that

Hear, hear, R62! Well said!

OP

Try to enjoy nature. When you are able, go outside and delight in our world once per week. The memories of the sights and sounds and smells of our trees, rocks, water, bridges, buildings and parks will affect you more days and weeks after, rather than at the time.

Take lots of photos on your phone. Pick the best one, have it printed, buy a cheap wooden frame and paint it a colour that compliments your walls (white on white looks great) and hang it on a wall. Then by the end of the year you will have 50 images reminding you of all you saw this year.

R64, that’s actually a lovely thing to suggest.

As hokey as this sounds, consider meditation. It gets you out of your head and all your perceived problems

There are a lot of great guided meditation apps you can download to your phone. Headspace, Buddify, Calm. As R66 says, they can really help. You pick the topic and the length of time you have/need/want the meditation to be. They’ve done wonders to soothe my anxiety.

The big plus of meditation is it diminishes the importance of your problems. You don’t see them as dominating your life any more

Oh! OP! Try yoga. It’s clinically proven to reduce depression and anxiety. You’re forced to focus on your breathing and body — sort of snaps you out of your head. Plus, it’s exercise, which is always good to reduce depression.

And it’s never too late to start.

Go have sex—a bathhouse usually has guaranteed sex. Just for the fun of it. Many people will find you attractive.

There’s no family in the afterlife so you chose to live?

Go to the movies. It works for me.

[quote] [R1] i have nothing. i'm 56 and haven't had any love for so long. Also, my family and I don't talk any more. there's more. but i've had a lifetime of things.

Oh, honey...

You are in the right place. People usually find Datalounge because they have endured a lifetime of things. Just know you are not alone.

So, OP, today is your birthday? January 4?

My birthday was December 30. These holiday adjacent birthdays suck. Do you think anyone notices my birthday lurking between Christmas and New Year? NO, THEY DON"T!

Not one mention on Facebook. But, I learned in childhood that it's a crappy birthday. I had very few parties. One year, fifth grade, most of my guest list failed to RSVP or attend.

I hardened my heart to the knowledge that my birthday would always awful. And it has. So much that I don't want any attention, gifts, or anything. Just leave me alone.

I'm happy about it, too. With no expectations I can't be disappointed.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, OP!

Rather than the bathhouse, try an escort. Rejection can be painful — particularly at a time when you’re vulnerable.

Escorts are pros at getting the job done m. Find the guys with the most and highest reviews. And have fun!

R75 (and OP), my partner’s birthday is 12/25.

Every 6/25, weeks celebrate him. We do the cake and gifts or a trip. Try using your day for reflection and doing what you want — and then party on an innocuous date. You kinda get two birthdays that way.

Sorry, OP. I posted the wrong video. I meant to post this one.

Don’t do that OP. Do something for somebody else. Even 20 bucks to a panhandler. And you need a hobby or interest that has FB presence. That’s really the only reason I have friends there, but it matters. And here. I just had my b-day too. So

I love you OP. Take it one second at a time. You have value and courage .

I saw a documentary about people who jumped from the GGate bridge , and lived. I will always remember the guy who said as his fingertips slipped off the rail , just before he plunged to his death, he thought he really could fix everything in his life, except for the fact he jumped off the bridge .

OP: you have courage to bare your soul to the den of vipers here. You are loved . 56 is young. time just speeds by … get whatever help you need…. If you don’t like therapist A, go to another one . If a doctor suggests medication … think about it… if you feel you are in the brink of self harm call 911 or drive yourself to the hospital . I’m actually a mom with a gay son. If it gives pleasure for some viper out there to hate on me for that … have at it I have done everything to love and accept him, but in the end, I need to pull back and only offer love and listen if/when he wants to talk .

I’ve thought of suicide a lot, and he is the reason I know I will never self harm . Sorry for long post

Happy birthday, OP. I'm sorry you feel so bad and I hope things really do turn around for you. 🙏🎁🥳🍾🎂

Glad you're still with us, OP. Hug.

Patron Saint Linda Lavin's corpse was pulled out of a car and displayed on a Malibu beach sidewalk for two hours. And you think YOU have problems?!

I'd sing Happy Birthday to you but trust me, you don't want to hear me sing. Settle for a virtual hug (((❤️)))

My loves <3

I so thank you for every thing you wrote. It was amazing and I appreciate it.

OP-is any of this helping?

Maybe he’s already checked out…

Should’ve text a warm line- not the DL Laugh line.

Is he dead yet?

This is an unusual suggestion, OP... but before you do anything drastic, talk with George Haas at Mettagroup in LA. I have a suspicion he might have some helpful thoughts

R28 I think you are missing the underlying beauty of DL. Sure, OP could be trolling. Who cares? Perhaps the kindness shown from our odd little community helped someone else who read it. Everything is not a contest or a battle. It's okay to say something nice every once in a while. It's too early in the year for you to be this bitter, doll. Peace to you too.

We have the same birthday, OP! And yes, we Capricorns are infamous Sad Bastards on our birthdays--particularly the ones born immediately after Christmas/New Year's. I think it comes from everyone being all holiday'd-out to remember or properly celebrate them when we were kids. Everyone is broke and exhausted. Not to mention no one showing up for your birthday party as a kid because it was over winter break and is pretty much always accompanied by sub-zero temps and major winter storms. You just stop telling people it's your birthday at some point as an adult to avoid disappointment, which only reinforces the idea that no one gives a shit you were born...

Just checking back-how is our birthday boy doing? Feeling any better from the wide range of helpful to hopeless responses? .

MURIEL!! Where are you??? Save us!!!

Do you have a chronic or terminal illness? Are you broke? Are you unemployed? Are you homeless?

If the answer to all of these questions is no then you need to get a hobby.

OP was like a hobbit, ready to give a present to everyone else on her birthday.

Welcher.

I hope things work out for the OP. But get off DL. I have never seen so many threads about depression, lack of a future, no hope, no love, more depression, wanting to end a life, as I have seen on DL.

It’s not a healthy place

Happy Burthday OP ... Big Hugs x

Hi OP please don't take this the wrong way but you need serious help. Well-adjusted people don't contemplate suicide because no one wished them a happy birthday. It is, infact, just another day and people who too much importance on the day they were born need therapy. Please get some help because there is 364 days until you go through this again.

R99 you did not read this properly

The OP states their life was saved by happy birthday wishes

They were considering suicide because they are alone, without family, and depressed.

OP…I am a Capricorn too……I am glad the facebook posts made you change your mind. I have been depressed but have never considered suicide. Capricorns as a rule are loyal, tenacious and organized…they are the kind of people you would want in a foxhole with you. Please consider some therapy and perhaps extending yourself a bit more socially this year. The world needs more Capricorns!

r100 I read it just fine. They need help.

Wishing you a belated Happy Birthday OP!