90s gay porn legend Tom Chase wants to re-enter porn even though he is close to 60

Ugh, I hated my abusive childhood too, but you don't see me sucking my way across a Portland senior center!

Tom Chase's scene with Mike Branson, esq. in California Kings is hot.

Tom Chase's ass during those early years was magnificient.

Leave us our memories, Tom. Leave us our memories.

Why in the world did he fuck up his body with all those nasty tats? He's made himself look like trash.

He must be broke and can't find a job. I can't fathom any other reason for him to want to get back into porn.

I had to Google old pictures of him to jog my memory. Still didn’t recognize him.

All that porn to end up in a basic apartment at 60. That sucks.

I never liked him much. He was the king of "Looks like a top, but heels hit the ceiling the minute he gets home" sort of look.

He's unrecognizable to me and I used to be one of his biggest followers. He sounds shallow and lame, another point against him. I do, however, wish there was some more decent mature porn because I'm into older guys.

"Exceptionally large endowment?"

Gah, then I have an exceptionally large endowment!

Are the tattoos like slave branding of olde?

It announces to the world that you never intend to have a "normal" job.

As for his lack of money: He didn't really make all that many films, and was he was making films it was with porn studios, which did not pay all that much in the 90s. Also, he had a big drug habit which is where all his money went.

A life built on bad decisions, through the truly ugly tats and getting back into porn at 60.

The tattoos under his clothes are much, much worse. He has giant black eagle's wings covering his arms, and black sunbursts surrounding his navel, each nipple, and his asshole. It's really unappealing.

Heavy tattooing, psychologically, is often a way of taking ownership of your body, and it's often big among people who either have some sort of body dysphoria (like trans people, or people with eating disorders), and/or who were sexually abused.

[quote]And I am also interested in sex work as a career and how different sex workers go about their careers—either haphazardly and messily, or with intention and thoughtfulness.

Ohmygawd.

[quote] It announces to the world that you never intend to have a "normal" job.

Only on your face, at least in Portland.

There's no wonder he lives here--you'll see even businessmen sometimes with all kinds of tattoos peeping from beneath their cuffs (or evident if they wear short sleeves). It's only the face people think is too far if you are covered up otherwise in clothes here.

He says he doesn't like effeminate men, but when he talks he has that fake-masc thing going on, as if he's trying with all his might to keep a lid on the lady within.

Also, this quote is sort of disturbing:

[quote]I was a boy who wanted to sleep with men. I would have slept with my gymnastics coach if I could have. When I discovered NAMBLA [the controversial North American Man-Boy Love Association, which apparently barely exists anymore], it made sense to me. An older man with a younger boy doesn't disturb me, because I know that if the boy is into it, it's a very good maturing situation for him. It's definitely what I wanted.

SIZEMEAT HAS NO EXPIRATIA DATE!!!!!

Then in ninth grade, a kid named Chris moves to town and becomes my friend. He was clearly gay, very effeminate, getting teased left and right. I do not like effeminate men and I never have. I've examined this within myself for years as to why. I thought maybe there was an effeminate side to me. But I just don't like it.

Tim: You mean you're not sexually attracted to effeminate men or you don't like them generally? And why do you think it bothers you so much? Do you think you simply internalized the deep anti-effeminacy [in men] strain that runs through society, even more so then than now?

Tom: I don't care if you're effeminate if you're my friend. And I vote for the rights of everybody. But a lot of effeminate men come on to me because I'm what they want. But I don't want them. So Chris was everything that put me off. It's embarrassing to hang out with someone who swishes around. But we became friends anyway, although not sexually. And I adapted to his effeminacy. And I learned that he was not such a bad guy. We became best friends out of survival. We were tagged as gay in school. We avoided each other in the hallway and hung out after school. But then he got a car and we decided to go to this gay bar called The Village Station. We're underage with braces and acne, but the owner let us in anyway.

[quote]All that porn to end up in a basic apartment at 60. That sucks.

Chase should have maxed out his 401K contributions, or started his own IRA! Enterprising porn actors used to tour in summer stock (the beloved "straw hat circuit") in the old days, where they could further their craft and earn a nice little dollar in the off season.

“ I knew I was gay at five. Homosexuality is the most predominant theme in my life. When my father would take us to the Y to swim, it was required then that you swim nude—so I'm seeing all kinds of men naked and am being turned on right and left. But I'm not aware that the turn-on is disgusting to most people. When I was seven, I had a friend spend the night. He got a boner and humped me and got in my crack. I liked it a lot and I didn't feel badly about it.”

[quote] I had a major break with my dad early on. When I was five, I gave my dad a stuffed watermelon pillow for his birthday. He took me into the other room and said, "Don't you ever buy me something like this again." So right then, I knew this was not a man to trust or learn from. I knew what he did was wrong. So I decided I would not let him raise me. The wall went up on him and he could never reach me again. I survived because I behaved myself until I could move out after age 18. I hung out with my mom, but over time I realized she loved him more than her own children, so I put the wall up on her, too. I was on my own. I never went to them for advice.

His life would make an interesting book.

The CAFTAN CHRONICLES?! No one noticed the name of the blog? Perfect blog for DL!

He's not dumb but does come across as shallow. He is indeed a bottom in his personal life and only tops for pay. Falcon insisted he be a top due to the size of his dick.

Even though he was a big star in his day, I don't think there will be much a demand for his comeback scenes. Although, I might watch one to see his asshole tattoo.

Eugh, he's covered in tattoos now. Gross.

[quote] The CAFTAN CHRONICLES?! No one noticed the name of the blog?

Ahem...

Being in pr0n is essentially subjecting yourself to sexual abuse for money.

Even if you do rework that as some kind of "ownership" or agency.

Tim: So when is your first gay sex?

Tom: When I was 16, I met a hot waiter who was 28. I show up at his doorstep with two steaks and tell him he's hot. And we date for two years, so that was my high school boyfriend.

Tim: Wow, so he was 28 and you were in high school. In retrospect, do you think that was wrong of him?

Tom: No. I was a boy who wanted to sleep with men. I would have slept with my gymnastics coach if I could have. When I discovered NAMBLA [the controversial North American Man-Boy Love Association, which apparently barely exists anymore], it made sense to me. An older man with a younger boy doesn't disturb me, because I know that if the boy is into it, it's a very good maturing situation for him. It's definitely what I wanted. I wasn't letting my dad raise me, so as I entered into homosexuality, I needed the advice and guidance of older men. I never liked people my own age. So around this time I meet a man who suggests that I do porn when he sees how big my dick is. Up to that point, I thought everyone's dick was the same size.

It sounds like he didn't go to college.

R21 that tells us far more about him than it does his parents. Basically, if you embarass him or piss him off or don't support him in the manner he thinks he needs, he cuts you off entirely, even at the young age of five.

As someone who's encountered him here in Portland, I can say that he's really very sweet but also quite intense and he's very well suited for porn in more than just the obvious ways, so I can see why he'd want to get back into it. I think he works as a physical trainer (he's still in fantastic shape) but I doubt that really pays the bills.

[quote] It sounds like he didn't go to college.

Considering the brain dead trash they churn out these, good for him.

R31 you likely offended him in some way during your brief interaction so he will never allow himself to fully open up with you. It's all your fault!

Hahaha I love that r32's post has a typo.

I found this photo of him with his wing tattoos and his nipple and naval tattoos. I'll keep looking to see if i can find one with his asshole tattoo.

It sounds like he didn't go to college.

You think?! Such an erudite observation, Rose

[quote] All that porn to end up in a basic apartment at 60. That sucks.

I have those same kitchen cabinets and doors as well.

He does sound shallow and insecure when he talks about how he only tolerates fem guys. They want him, but he doesn't want them, blah blah blah.

Tattoos are ridiculous.

OP that substack is clearly run by a DLer.

R35 eugh, nipple tattoos and piercings?

So his fathers' aversion to effeminacy clearly still affects him.

I bet his living room is filled with watermelon pillows.

Sorry: I meant "navel," not "naval."

NO MORE WATERMELON PILLOWS.....EV ER!

I detested effeminate men until I fell in love with one...it was a huge learning curve for me in judging people

According to his personal Facebook profile, he attended Boston University (studied journalism) and University of Louisville (studied English literature).

Too bad he can never work with Titpig.

Meh. She looks quite fat in OP's photo.

(and no, I don't want to see her nude, thanks...)

What's sad is that he clearly hates his father so much and yet he lets his homophobic father live in his head with all his standards for masculinity.

Hasn't he made a comeback to porn before? I swear this is at least the second time.

He should just start "an" Onlyfans. That way he can get all the dick he wants. Or at least test the waters with a sexy Twitter account.

Don't they all constantly make comebacks? Money runs out, comeback.

R51 He's had come on his back a few times, I bet.

He was sexier without the tattoos.

Yeah that was from his last comeback, wasn't it? ^

And yes much hotter without the tattoos.

[quote] Don't they all constantly make comebacks? Money runs out, comeback.

I hate that word! It's a return, a return to the millions of people who have never forgiven me for deserting the screen!

R49 Yes, he made a comeback for Colt around 15 years or so ago, including bottoming bareback for openly HIV poz Tim Kelly.

R56 And that was pre-Prep. Draw your own conclusions.

He appeared in a scene called Open House with a British guy who went by the bizarre name of Erik Korngold who was a well known psycho in Britain and one of the many prostitutes George Michael paid for sex.

That's a hard 57. He only had 2 scenes that I liked. One was with the little French twink and the other was with Lane (Fuller??).

[quote] who was a well known psycho in Britain

What does that mean? Everyone in the UK knew he was psycho? Even the Queen?

The queen is the biggest psycho of them all.

Why not?

He's very nice. Seems thoughtful and sensitive.

In person, his huge eyes can and soft smile can absolutely disarm you.

It's a very powerful trait.

"Thank goodness Erik Korngold is not coming!" -- the Queen, at Prince Philip's funeral

Hot in his youth - especially when he was furrier and had facial hair. Great dick and ass. He bottomed in some earlier videos.

The post-peak tats are terrible, and he can't seem to let it all go. But, I'm betting there's some market for him - even if it's just the older daddy who fucks the twink. Then again, there's hardly a shortage of people to do that.

The article seems cut off. Is there more?

Right, just as he's being ask about his "relationship with your dick."

As I posted in my original post, r66: there is more but you have to have a subscription to read the rest of it, and I don't have a subscription.

Since he's still got a hard body, even with the tattoos he could still do porn for MenOver30 or for Twink Tops--they take guys who are his age or older so long as they are muscular and ripped (like Lance Charger or Dallas Steele).

I doubt he would be a superstar again, though, like he was in the 90s. Even back in the 00s he was always wearing a cockring in his scenes, which really bugs some people.

Dallas Steele? He's early 40s, not late 50s!

Daddies are in so why not??

[quote]According to his personal Facebook profile, he attended Boston University (studied journalism) and University of Louisville (studied English literature).

He did? And yet he said this:

[quote] I liked it a lot and I didn't feel badly about it.

Oh, dear!

[quote] Dallas Steele? He's early 40s, not late 50s!

And I am the Queen of Romania.

[quote]The article seems cut off. Is there more?

[quote]Right, just as he's being ask about his "relationship with your dick."

You have to subscribe if you want more.

I would like to read the whole thing to see if my perception of Tom from what's available to read changes. He sounds incredibly vulnerable and psychologically damaged. The section about paedophilia is very disturbing.

With all those nasty tats I can't fathom any of the few decent pron studios left willing to shoot him. He might want to try with Dick Wadd or some outfit of that caliber.

And what the fuck is going on with his nose? It's become HUGE!! Is that possibly a sign of steroid use?

I noticed the nose too. Noses expand grotesquely sometimes. His face did not survive aging well and his body would have if he hadn't wrecked it with those insane tats.

He's always had a bulbous nose... and as we get older, our noses and ears start to droop and appear even larger.

Bette Davis was right: old age is not for sissies.

Here he is with Matthew Rush, another pron wreckage.

Ugh! This guy never did anything for me during his "hot" years much less now.

Want to give an older guy another shot? How about Chase Hunter?

“Master Top” and “Master Bottom” tattooed on his hands? What a train wreck.

I'd love for 90s/00s hunk Parker Williams to make a cumback.

Jason Branch (Andrew Nelson Peterson) would be a great interview subject.

He was really into bondage/pain play as well as the standard white socks/tan lines/awful dialogue studio porn.

Ew, his hand tattoos say "Mister Top" and "Mister Bottom"?

Mmmmmmmmm, Jason Branch.

I still most definitely would.

Anyone seen Mike Branson lately? Or did he die?

Excess tats = repulsive.

Tom Chase was super hot in one movie and one movie only. Every other one of his original oeuvre he was too flaccid and it was more disappointing than hit. I haven't seen anything he's done since Viagra and Caverject became available though.

The movie was the one where he's in a tropical location and he's actually rock hard during his scenes. His costar was hot too, but I read somewhere that they hated each other (I believe it was from an older interview Chase did).

I thought he was hot when he first debuted - muscular but lean with a swimmer’s bod. As he bulked up, I became less and less interested. Wish he had bottomed in those early appearances.

R87: Caverject was around during his prime.

Jason Branch would be an interesting interview. He worked for a friend of a friend. Jason Branch had basically fucked his way around Europe as a boy toy before doing porn. Chase just seems sad.

He did bottom early on a few times.

R89 perhaps that was why he was rock hard in that movie. I didn't see him that hard in anything else though.

He used to be one the best ass eaters in gay porn. I busted many a load watching him rim Tony Idol in [italic]The Freshmen.[/italic]

He got old on me..

R90 - wasn’t his bottom debut with Mike Branson in California Kings? If I recall correctly Falcon made it a big deal at the time.

Mebbe he's just saying controversial shit to get some attention for his porn comeback. Who knows the real truth or if he really believes what he's saying? Most of these porn people are major liars.

"Alpha male bodybuilder looking for a young boy to guide, or a romance with a like-minded soul. I am a university graduate, emotionally intelligent, well-traveled, and lots of fun. I am ego-free, baggage-free, and self-actualized. I love myself, and, therefore, I am able to love others. I am honest, trustworthy, direct (no b.s.), and kind....I enjoy cultivating intimacy over time. My preferred relationships are long-term....YOU: 20 - 40 years old, 4'10" - 5'8", skinny/firm, small-framed, fitness lifestyle, intelligent, submissive, loving, kind, and willing to bottom for me regularly. I can guide you, or we can simply share time together.....Your hole is important to me. I prefer a man who is in tune with his hole and enjoys regular attention. The looser the hole, the better. Gapes turn me on. I am an expert rimmer, and I can spend hours seeding and feeding from the right guy. I am not a hole wrecker. I turn hole into pussy over a period of time, with constant, loving attention."

Tom Chase on asspig

[quote]I am ego-free, baggage-free, and self-actualized.

Ugh, no thanks

Those have got to be some of the worst tats I have ever seen. Absolutely hideous.

Someone needs to look up Rick Donovan. The miracle of caverject might finally get that whopper rock hard.

[quote] I thought he was hot when he first debuted - muscular but lean with a swimmer’s bod. As he bulked up, I became less and less interested. Wish he had bottomed in those early appearances.

What's saddest about that is that he is by inclination a bottom. he could have done many more bottoming scenes, but John Rutherford got one look at that dick and decided (rightly) that he would be of most appeal as a bottom. unfortunately in those days Rutherford and the Falcon management thought if you were a top you should enbver bottom or people would be turned off, which just wasn't true.

According to Tom Chase, he had to beg and beg Rutherford to let him bottom for "California Kings," and even then Ruutherford had ridiculous dialogue written where Chase insists to Mike Branson he's never bottomed nor even considered doing it before. But then when Branson slips his massive cock into Chase's butt it goes in completely easily (because Chase had of course bottomed dozens and dozens of times before and had a very loose hole), so the dialogue seemed even more ridiculous.

I actually preferred Chase beefy and muscled up to his earlier, leaner gymnastics look.

I read this interview on Cybersocket last year but decided it was too hurtful and sad for Datalounge and could possibly trigger a mass extinction event. I did not want that on my conscience.

[quote]YOU: 20 - 40 years old, 4'10" - 5'8", skinny/firm, small-framed

Okay, he wants an adult, at least. But one built like a small boy.

5'8" is fairly short.

4'10" is freakishly short for an adult male.

from r101's link:

[quote] [Interviewer:] You have said it was a deliberate decision of yours to show on screen your progression from boy to man. How and why did you do that?

[quote] TC: Yes, this is true. I felt the world needed to see a true depiction of the sexual and physical maturation of a gay man. Initially, as most gay men, I topped. As I matured and discovered my hole, I started bottoming. This is a typical course for a gay man over his lifetime, and I wanted to show that natural progression. Basically, I produced a documentary of Tom Chase growing up in the bedroom, and I used three porn studios to produce that documentary: Falcon, Colt, and Butch Bear Studios.

I don't know this person at all. The tattoos must have cost a few bucks? Wouldn't the money be better spent elsewhere? To me or society in general, tattoos shouldn't define who you are...but sadly they do.

I like these Youtube clips that show everything but the deed. How else will we recruit and groom the young?!

[quote] When I discovered NAMBLA [the controversial North American Man-Boy Love Association, which apparently barely exists anymore], it made sense to me. An older man with a younger boy doesn't disturb me, because I know that if the boy is into it, it's a very good maturing situation for him. It's definitely what I wanted.

Yeah, he's damaged.

His hairy body was hot when younger. What's it look like now?

While I'm not a fan of tattoos in general, I expected something more disfiguring along the lines of Kat Von D or Machine Gun Kelly based on people's reactions. Tom's at least look like they were planned out in advance and executed by an actual artist rather than done on impulse by a friend during a drunken binge.

R103 I would hope he isn't serious, but we know he is DEADLY SERIOUS.

"My porn videos were a decades-long documentary, to show the youth how to be gay" Come ON with this bs.

The move away from Dallas happened in 2012, midlife crisis time, and when he got to Portland Oregon that sounds like when he went tattoo-crazy now that he wasn't around his immediate and wealthy family. A rebellious act.

He has a wealthy family, but he mentions living paycheck to paycheck next.

Also he is self-diagnosed with all his pseudo-psyche talk, but has mixed in some 12-step mythology with his transformation.

Nice try to the queen who stopped the interview at his cock, but I'm not shelling out $5 for that!

Paternal rejection ???

He should book Dr Jason Branch for some psychotherapy to explore his issues.

[quote] Tom's at least look like they were planned out in advance and executed by an actual artist rather than done on impulse by a friend during a drunken binge.

Some people's heavy tattoos are done so they actually compliment the shape of the body. Tom's actually interrupt and diminish the natural lines which are actually in very good form for an old guy. They are indeed done by an artist but they show no sense of composition. It's like he saw some shapes he likes and had them slapped wherever they fit without consideration for the overall balance. Those things around his nipples are truly hideous.

[quote] They are indeed done by an artist but they show no sense of composition.

Do you analyze tattoo patterns for all pron stars?

I didn’t see a lot of gay porn until I came out in the mid 90s. I had this old neighbor with a a huge collection of porn and he would let me borrow tapes. I don’t remember this guy. One of my favorites was Chris McKenzie. He was a tall lanky blond with a kind of dorky face. I wonder whatever happened to him?

He mentions in various interviews that he cried every day for 5 years (!!MARY!!) before he was able to break free from his controlling family. But he was in his late 40s/early 50s by this time? Isn't that too old to be rehashing the stuffed watermelon Daddy didn't want? Was he in therapy every day or was he just a basket case? So many unanswered questions....

[quote] they actually compliment the shape of the body.

Oh, dear.

[quote] Ruutherford had ridiculous dialogue written

There’s dialogue in pron?

Well, whaddaya know about that!

[quote]There’s dialogue in pron? Well, whaddaya know about that!

Oh yes the Falcon videos that Tom Chase starred in were known for their plots.

For California Kings there was some plot about a mattress. Someone phones up about a delivery and the guy wanks off on the phone. Then there is a delivery of the mattress and one guy gets DPd on it. Then he decides the mattress isn't for him so he gives it go his friend Mike Branson who invites Tom over to get fucked on it and I can't remember the end.

Not sure if you have to pay money for a subscription to "Caftan Chronicles." You may just have to create an account.

I can’t remember this guy at all and judging by his face at r101, it might be a mental block.

[quote]Not sure if you have to pay money for a subscription to "Caftan Chronicles." You may just have to create an account.

"This is a post for paid subscribers"

Tom Chase used to have a neck

It's interesting he complains his father is/was a narcissist when that's obviously his big problem: thinking his porn films are a serious documentary of a gay man maturing, and making such a fuss about men who are interested in him not belong masculine enough for him.

"Do you analyze tattoo patterns for all pron stars?"

Not just pron stars. I think they say something about the wearer. In this case, he's a mess. Deep enough for ya?

No, go deeper, honey!

Anyone who was watching gay porn through the 90s and says they don't remember Tom Chase must either suffer from some sort of brain damage, or is lying.

Well, a lot of us have progressed to Alzheimers. The 90's was a long time ago.

Tom Chase was in a scene with Mike Branson in "California Kings" that had one of the more athletic positions in gay porn.

To be fair, Tom Chase looks incredibly different now than he did at the height of his fame (see photo), when his body was hairless and had a preppy haircut in keeping with the Falcon aesthetic. When he had his first comeback with Colt, he completely changed his look and grew his hair long and let his body hair grow.

But he was really "it" in the 90s--the biggest star Falcon had, and they were the top company had. he had a huge dick, an intimidating muscular and ripped body, a fantastic ass, and he was incredibly aggressive and dominating when he topped his partners (often because he was on drugs when he did his scenes, like his famous one with Adriano Marquez). In a few of his films he would aggressively drill someone as someone else looked on, and he would sneer at the onlooker "You're NEXT!" as he worked on the other guy--that was incredibly hot.

Tom did the whole caboodle - vanilla, rough, leather, toys, fisting, domination, enemas

Happy midsummer, Caftan readers! I hope you are having a good one despite the bad things that continue to swirl around us in the U.S. and elsewhere. It is so important that Democrats win as many races as possible this November, and here is a recent New York magazine piece on the crucial races to not only watch—but, if you can, to donate to and/or even canvass for if you have the means and the time. In late October/earlyNovember, I will probably head with some friends again to Pennsylvania, as we did in 2020, to canvass for Democratic Senate candidate John Fetterman. But as I write this, I leave in less than 24 hours for three weeks in GREECE, where I’ve never been. I’m excited! I’m also going to try to be off my laptop for the longest time since I can’t even remember, and to try to READ READ READ, including Zadie Smith’s White Teeth, which, believe it or not, I’ve yet to tackle.

But enough about that! I’m actually so excited to have interviewed for this Caftan Chronicles my first porn star—nineties Falcon and 2000s Colt legend Tom Chase. I reached out to him because, yes, I am a big porn fan and I’ve long been a big Tom Chase fan, because he always seemed to me, in addition to being a very competent hung dom top (at least in the Falcon years), kind of a nice regular guy, almost like your friendly, affable high school gym teacher you had a huge secret closeted crush on. But more so, I think porn is more important in the lives of gay men than we give it credit for. It’s where many of us actually see what gay sex looks like for the first time, what the different types and tropes of gay desire are, and in a sense it’s where many of us actually kind of learn how to have gay sex—at least in the technical, if not necessarily the emotional, sense. And I am also interested in sex work as a career and how different sex workers go about their careers—either haphazardly and messily, or with intention and thoughtfulness. Tom (whose real name, Tom Moore, he is open about) is definitely in the latter category, as you’ll see. He had a vision for the arc of his porn career that he executed, and he intends to have another chapter. But what I did not expect necessarily was that he would be so forthcoming about a years-long breakdown he had in the 2000s and the 2010s, and how he literally cried his way through it, largely without professional help—that, too, was a conscious choice, although not one I’d recommend—to come out the other side. I think what I took away from his story is that not even someone who was a kind of gay physical ideal was spared the pain of parental and social rejection that so many of us gay men—perhaps more so on the older side?—experience as children and teenagers.

I've never even seen his earlier work, but I'd be only too happy for the guy in OP's pic to impregnate me.

I do want to note that this is a very sexually graphic interview, so please proceed with that in mind. And I’ve made the choice to, well, censor the part of Tom he is perhaps most known for, because if there is some kind of Substack algorithm out there, I don’t want it shunting The Caftan Chronicles into a porn cul-de-sac. And with that, I give you Tom Chase, to whom I am very thankful for the three separate hours-long sessions he spent with me on the phone, always being thoughtful and open about whatever I asked him. He took his porn career seriously and was able to talk about it with detail and depth, which I really appreciated. So here we go! Oh! But before we do, I want to say, as always, thanks to those of you who support Caftan with your $5/month subscription, and if you have the unpaid version, please consider, if you can, doing the $5 version—it really helps me continue carving out the time for this labor of love!

Tim: Tom, thank you so much for doing a Caftan talk with me! So...to start...you moved to Portland, Oregon, in 2012, correct?

Tom: Yes. Prior to that, I was in Dallas [where he grew up]. There was a turning point in my life where I was learning how to destroy my ego in order to be free. Basically everything in life I'd attached to emotionally I had to let go of, or I was going to die on the inside. I saw my parents do that, by living out of duty and not for their own happiness. So in 2012 this feeling became so profound that I had to leave Dallas so I could dissolve, and when I say that, I'm talking about a nervous breakdown. I did what a wounded animal would do, which is go lie down under a bush until I was healed. I realized that my unhappiness was connected to my immediate family, which had become toxic. My parents were quite wealthy but my childhood was unhappy because it was so rule-oriented, and of course my being gay didn't fit into that. I also discovered that my father was a narcissist.

Tim: How did you discover that?

Tom: I didn't have a therapist. My conscience was my guide through five years of deep crying every single day, 2010 to 2015, not stopping until I went to bed. I'd sleep well, wake up and do it all over again. After five years, I'd cried out all of my pain and sorrow and had let go of my guilt, shame, anger and resentments. I let go of bad habits, actions and thoughts that got in the way of my joy. All my friends and family had to go.

Tim: All of them?

Tom: Yes. Any friend who truly loved me would meet me on the other side of [my transformation] and none did except for one, Gordon, my current roommate, who stayed by my side, so he is the first friend of this new chapter of my life.

All the people in the past were doing the same things and thinking the same way I was—drinking and doing drugs, believing things that aren't true or learning not to believe at all.

Tim: Some of what you're talking about sounds very Buddhist, letting go of the self. Did you get into Buddhism or meditation?

Tom: No. It all happened organically. When I'd had enough of being unhappy and living paycheck to paycheck, I surrendered myself to my higher power, which is love, to heal my life.

Tim: Okay—let's get back to this in a bit, but now I want to go all the way back. So you are 57 now?

Tom: Yes. I was born in Columbus, Ohio. Both my parents were from Oklahoma, high school sweethearts, the basketball captain and the homecoming queen who fell in love and married. My father went on to become a renowned pediatrician. When I was five, we moved to Highland Park, a very wealthy part of Dallas. I knew I was gay at five. Homosexuality is the most predominant theme in my life. When my father would take us to the Y to swim, it was required then that you swim nude—so I'm seeing all kinds of men naked and am being turned on right and left. But I'm not aware that the turn-on is disgusting to most people. When I was seven, I had a friend spend the night. He got a boner and humped me and got in my crack. I liked it a lot and I didn't feel badly about it.

A recent shot of Tom, 58, at home in Portland. Happy midsummer, Caftan readers! I hope you are having a good one despite the bad things that continue to swirl around us in the U.S. and elsewhere. It is so important that Democrats win as many races as possible this November, and here is a recent New York magazine piece on the crucial races to not only watch—but, if you can, to donate to and/or even canvass for if you have the means and the time. In late October/earlyNovember, I will probably head with some friends again to Pennsylvania, as we did in 2020, to canvass for Democratic Senate candidate John Fetterman. But as I write this, I leave in less than 24 hours for three weeks in GREECE, where I’ve never been. I’m excited! I’m also going to try to be off my laptop for the longest time since I can’t even remember, and to try to READ READ READ, including Zadie Smith’s White Teeth, which, believe it or not, I’ve yet to tackle.

But enough about that! I’m actually so excited to have interviewed for this Caftan Chronicles my first porn star—nineties Falcon and 2000s Colt legend Tom Chase. I reached out to him because, yes, I am a big porn fan and I’ve long been a big Tom Chase fan, because he always seemed to me, in addition to being a very competent hung dom top (at least in the Falcon years), kind of a nice regular guy, almost like your friendly, affable high school gym teacher you had a huge secret closeted crush on. But more so, I think porn is more important in the lives of gay men than we give it credit for. It’s where many of us actually see what gay sex looks like for the first time, what the different types and tropes of gay desire are, and in a sense it’s where many of us actually kind of learn how to have gay sex—at least in the technical, if not necessarily the emotional, sense. And I am also interested in sex work as a career and how different sex workers go about their careers—either haphazardly and messily, or with intention and thoughtfulness. Tom (whose real name, Tom Moore, he is open about) is definitely in the latter category, as you’ll see. He had a vision for the arc of his porn career that he executed, and he intends to have another chapter. But what I did not expect necessarily was that he would be so forthcoming about a years-long breakdown he had in the 2000s and the 2010s, and how he literally cried his way through it, largely without professional help—that, too, was a conscious choice, although not one I’d recommend—to come out the other side. I think what I took away from his story is that not even someone who was a kind of gay physical ideal was spared the pain of parental and social rejection that so many of us gay men—perhaps more so on the older side?—experience as children and teenagers.

I do want to note that this is a very sexually graphic interview, so please proceed with that in mind. And I’ve made the choice to, well, censor the part of Tom he is perhaps most known for, because if there is some kind of Substack algorithm out there, I don’t want it shunting The Caftan Chronicles into a porn cul-de-sac. And with that, I give you Tom Chase, to whom I am very thankful for the three separate hours-long sessions he spent with me on the phone, always being thoughtful and open about whatever I asked him. He took his porn career seriously and was able to talk about it with detail and depth, which I really appreciated. So here we go! Oh! But before we do, I want to say, as always, thanks to those of you who support Caftan with your $5/month subscription, and if you have the unpaid version, please consider, if you can, doing the $5 version—it really helps me continue carving out the time for this labor of love!

Tim: Tom, thank you so much for doing a Caftan talk with me! So...to start...you moved to Portland, Oregon, in 2012, correct?

Tom: Yes. Prior to that, I was in Dallas [where he grew up]. There was a turning point in my life where I was learning how to destroy my ego in order to be free. Basically everything in life I'd attached to emotionally I had to let go of, or I was going to die on the inside. I saw my parents do that, by living out of duty and not for their own happiness. So in 2012 this feeling became so profound that I had to leave Dallas so I could dissolve, and when I say that, I'm talking about a nervous breakdown. I did what a wounded animal would do, which is go lie down under a bush until I was healed. I realized that my unhappiness was connected to my immediate family, which had become toxic. My parents were quite wealthy but my childhood was unhappy because it was so rule-oriented, and of course my being gay didn't fit into that. I also discovered that my father was a narcissist.

Tim: How did you discover that?

Tom: I didn't have a therapist. My conscience was my guide through five years of deep crying every single day, 2010 to 2015, not stopping until I went to bed. I'd sleep well, wake up and do it all over again. After five years, I'd cried out all of my pain and sorrow and had let go of my guilt, shame, anger and resentments. I let go of bad habits, actions and thoughts that got in the way of my joy. All my friends and family had to go.

Tim: All of them?

Tom: Yes. Any friend who truly loved me would meet me on the other side of [my transformation] and none did except for one, Gordon, my current roommate, who stayed by my side, so he is the first friend of this new chapter of my life.

All the people in the past were doing the same things and thinking the same way I was—drinking and doing drugs, believing things that aren't true or learning not to believe at all.

Tim: Some of what you're talking about sounds very Buddhist, letting go of the self. Did you get into Buddhism or meditation?

Tom: No. It all happened organically. When I'd had enough of being unhappy and living paycheck to paycheck, I surrendered myself to my higher power, which is love, to heal my life.

Tim: Okay—let's get back to this in a bit, but now I want to go all the way back. So you are 57 now?

Tom: Yes. I was born in Columbus, Ohio. Both my parents were from Oklahoma, high school sweethearts, the basketball captain and the homecoming queen who fell in love and married. My father went on to become a renowned pediatrician. When I was five, we moved to Highland Park, a very wealthy part of Dallas. I knew I was gay at five. Homosexuality is the most predominant theme in my life. When my father would take us to the Y to swim, it was required then that you swim nude—so I'm seeing all kinds of men naked and am being turned on right and left. But I'm not aware that the turn-on is disgusting to most people. When I was seven, I had a friend spend the night. He got a boner and humped me and got in my crack. I liked it a lot and I didn't feel badly about it.

But then in Highland Park, I transfer into my new school at eight and immediately get called a faggot on my first day—not because I acted like one but because I wouldn't fight.

I had a major break with my dad early on. When I was five, I gave my dad a stuffed watermelon pillow for his birthday. He took me into the other room and said, "Don't you ever buy me something like this again." So right then, I knew this was not a man to trust or learn from. I knew what he did was wrong. So I decided I would not let him raise me. The wall went up on him and he could never reach me again. I survived because I behaved myself until I could move out after age 18. I hung out with my mom, but over time I realized she loved him more than her own children, so I put the wall up on her, too. I was on my own. I never went to them for advice.

In elementary school, I got called a faggot every day. But I knew they were correct, so even though I didn't say "Yes, I am," I also didn't deny it. By high school, I wasn't popular but I was respected. I was a gymnast.

Then in ninth grade, a kid named Chris moves to town and becomes my friend. He was clearly gay, very effeminate, getting teased left and right. I do not like effeminate men and I never have. I've examined this within myself for years as to why. I thought maybe there was an effeminate side to me. But I just don't like it.

Tim: You mean you're not sexually attracted to effeminate men or you don't like them generally? And why do you think it bothers you so much? Do you think you simply internalized the deep anti-effeminacy [in men] strain that runs through society, even more so then than now?

Tom: I don't care if you're effeminate if you're my friend. And I vote for the rights of everybody. But a lot of effeminate men come on to me because I'm what they want. But I don't want them. So Chris was everything that put me off. It's embarrassing to hang out with someone who swishes around. But we became friends anyway, although not sexually. And I adapted to his effeminacy. And I learned that he was not such a bad guy. We became best friends out of survival. We were tagged as gay in school. We avoided each other in the hallway and hung out after school. But then he got a car and we decided to go to this gay bar called The Village Station. We're underage with braces and acne, but the owner let us in anyway.

Tim: Oh wow, so you started going to gay venues early. Do you remember watching your first porn?

Tom: Yes, at Chris' house. His stepfather's [straight] porn movies. We saw The Story of O, Behind the Green Door, Deep Throat. Of course I was turned on by the guys. The first gay porn I saw was [1988's] Cruisin' with Joe Cade. [Tim: Tom and Joe later married in 1998 and were together until 2000.]

Tim: So when is your first gay sex?

Tom: When I was 16, I met a hot waiter who was 28. I show up at his doorstep with two steaks and tell him he's hot. And we date for two years, so that was my high school boyfriend.

Tim: Wow, so he was 28 and you were in high school. In retrospect, do you think that was wrong of him?

Tom: No. I was a boy who wanted to sleep with men. I would have slept with my gymnastics coach if I could have. When I discovered NAMBLA [the controversial North American Man-Boy Love Association, which apparently barely exists anymore], it made sense to me. An older man with a younger boy doesn't disturb me, because I know that if the boy is into it, it's a very good maturing situation for him. It's definitely what I wanted. I wasn't letting my dad raise me, so as I entered into homosexuality, I needed the advice and guidance of older men. I never liked people my own age. So around this time I meet a man who suggests that I do porn when he sees how big my dick is. Up to that point, I thought everyone's dick was the same size.

Tim: Yes, I did want to ask you about your relationship with your own dick, because it has been such a defining feature of your porn career. How do you feel about it? Grateful for it?

Tom: After I'd become Tom Chase the porn star, someone once said to me, "You must walk around all day thinking about your dick." But I don't.

Tim: Does it get tiresome to have people commenting on your dick all the time?

Tom: No, it's always a source of pleasure. Look, after years of being called a faggot, I'll take any compliment. It's a beautiful dick. I'm not complimenting myself—that's just a fact. I first became aware of how big it was when I started getting boners in high school. You can't hide a ten and a half inch hard dick under your jeans. It was embarrassing at the time. But once guys started telling me it was huge, I thought, yeah, I could do porn, but I'd rather be a real Hollywood actor. But then I realize that [sexually, not in porn] I'm in big demand as a top. Now, I am naturally a top, but at the same time, because I wanted an older brother figure, I wanted to bottom. To be clear, I love bottoms and I love hole. I think I transferred my fetish for someone else's hole to my own. I'm not a good bottom, actually. I wail like an ambulance if the dick is too hard or too long.

So this is now 1982 or 1983 and AIDS is hitting Dallas. And when I see a hairy guy, I want to be the pussy. But instead everyone wants me to fuck them. I thought, this is like being the Fonz—all I have to do is hit the jukebox and I get whoever I want. So partly because of AIDS, when I get to Boston, I make a conscious decision to be a top. And I box myself into a role that you will end up watching [in my films].

Tim: OK, so what happens after high school?

Tom: I had to take two years off before college—my dad made all of us do that, me and my siblings. I came out to my father and he said, "No gay man deserves a college education—they don't need that much money." I said, "You told each of us that if we made good grades in high school, you'd pay our college tuition." And then I said to him, "Okay, I take it back, I'm not gay." And he said, "Okay, I'll pay for your tuition."

Tim: Wow, that was an easy walk-back. And you end up at Boston University.

Tom: I loved Boston. Coming from the South, it was such a change of pace. I thought the men there were very masculine and beautiful, which is very important to me. The attractive men in Dallas could be a little bit like their moms, which is a turn-off. I like a masculine, loving kind jock. Not mean toxic masculinity. In Boston, the men were ready to fuck, and I loved that, and how liberal the city was, even though I didn't like the weather.

But also around this time, Christmas Eve 1989, I test positive for HIV.

Tim: Oh, wow. That was a scary time to get an HIV diagnosis—seven years before any effective treatment. What was your reaction?

Tom: I was shocked because I'd thought that if you were a top you were less likely to get it. But I got HIV one of the very first times I bottomed, with a friend who had a really big dick. And I don't like condoms. I told my parents about my diagnosis, and they didn't like that at all.

Tim: So—were you completely devastated? You're only 24 at the time.

Tom: I actually could feel this love surrounding me saying that I was going to be okay. I did go to Fenway [the LGBTQ health center in Boston] for counseling. The counselor said, "Whether you make friends or enemies with this bogeyman of HIV will determine whether you live or die." So I choose to befriend my virus and start loving myself.

So I move to Sacramento to be with my older sister, who is a lesbian, and I get a job at a gym where the bodybuilders showed me how to get a good body and also be a personal trainer. So then I moved back to Boston and started my own training business. I thought, "This is my career—I'm HIV-positive so probably no corporation is going to hire me. I have to be self-employed." I read Louise Hay's book You Can Heal Your Life, about how people hold on to anger and rage [and thus make themselves or stay sick]. I didn't necessarily believe her but there was no pill for me to take at the time, and this offered way to manage having HIV. I also moved closer to Mike's Gym in the South End [at the time the main gayborhood in Boston].

So this is how porn comes into the picture. I wanted to be famous, but now I'm probably going to die in 10 years, so I didn't have 20 years to put in as an actor before I get a big break. I'd also have to suppress my gayness, because nobody in Hollywood is out yet. I thought that I could make a few porn movies and at least then my friends will have something to look at after I die.

So I called Falcon, which was considered the best [gay porn] production house in the country. I decided that if I was going to do this, I'm going to go to the best first, because they'd make me look good even if I fucked it up.

Tim: Did you tell family and friends about your decision to pursue porn?

Tom: I told my sister. Not the lesbian, but the one who was the most rebellious, who is actually now very religious. I told her on the way to Easter brunch with our family. She didn't say anything. I think she didn't want to hear it. Then I told my lesbian sister who thought it was cool and said, "Yeah, do it!"

So I actually gave myself a full year to ponder this idea before I contacted Falcon. It was risky. I knew I'd lose a lot of friends—and I did. There's a [respectability] hierarchy in the gay world. Even in the 1970s in San Francisco, white guys were suppressing their Black brothers. It's The Lord of the Flies all over again.

Tim: Well—speaking of that. Falcon movies from the 80s and 90s are pretty much 100 percent white actors, which appears to have changed somewhat since then.

I know I'm jumping ahead, but were there ever conversations about that at Falcon?

Tom: By the time I got there, that conversation had already been had. They'd had a movie in 1986 called Night Flight where the Black airline pilot fucks the blond steward.

The movie caused a lawsuit against Falcon in Tennessee for interracial sex, which Falcon won. {Tim: I couldn't find any Internet back-up about this.] So I wanted to be a part of the movement to set [gay people] free. My friends were involved in ACT UP, demonstrating in the streets, which was not my way. I figured that if I made porn, the people from my upper-middle-class background would have to deal with it.

Tim: Okay, so how do you connect with Falcon?

Tom: I wrote them a letter saying "I want to be called Tom Chase and I want to be a model and document the sexual and physical maturation of a gay boy into a man. I'm currently 30 and I look 18, so I intend to bodybuild and grow hair and grow into a man over a period of 15 years."

Tim: Wow, so you came to them with a full concept for your career trajectory?

Tom: Yes.

Tim: So—this is something I think people really want to know, which is what is it like to film a porn movie.

Tom: Exhausting work. None of it was fun. I thought they basically let you romp and play. No. Everything was scripted, except that Falcon would let you ad lib. But the direction of the scene was predetermined. They knew the shots they wanted. I didn't expect to have 10 to 15 people surrounding me while I fuck, two guys with reflectors, three with cameras, one with a microphone, all within five feet of you. They said, "Your boner won't last more than a minute, so get used to going to the side and stroking it, and we'll film one to two minutes at a time.” It would take up to ten hours to shoot 20 minutes of film.

The first film I made with them was Backwoods (1996). I was nervous. I was with a whole vanload of guys I don't know driving deep into the woods. I thought they were gonna kill me. But in fact we were treated like gold, which is how Falcon treats everyone. The accommodations were comfortable, the food was good, there was never any negative energy. I thought it was really cool to hang out with 12 naked guys—six straight, six gay—and we weren't sexual toward each other because we were there to work.

Tim: Wow, half straight men and half gay. What was that dynamic like?

Tom: All brotherhood and really cool masculine energy. We'd stargaze at night, lie by the pool and tan during the day. On any porn set, there is not any [off-screen] sex going on, and if there is, they're breaking the rule, because if you expend your energy in private, you're gonna look like shit in the movie.

Tim: With all the technical demands on set, are you able to actually get horny and get into it?

Tom: Yes, if you're into the model [you're doing a scene with]. I was never into any of them except Mike Branson. He and I had the best chemistry together.

Tim: Hm. So you said in a previous interview that you think your final scene with Matthew Anders in High Tide (1997) is your masterpiece. Why?

Tom: We had no chemistry. He didn't like my energy, which put me off to him. So our scene was supposed to be [very romantic] making love, which I had not done. The scene starts with us cuddling and walking together in nature. I realized I couldn't rely on his natural attraction to me to make the scene work. So I broke a promise I'd made to myself, which was that I'd never show my vulnerable side on camera. I saved that for real boyfriends. On film, I'd only be the ass-slapping top. But that day, the only tool I had was the truth of who I really am, which is a tender, loving man. So in High Tide, you see the real Tom Chase for the first time.

Tim: And how did that feel?

Tom: Wonderful. It was the first movie I was genuine in. And it was successful and it looked great.

Tim: Did it open Matthew Anders up to you, so to speak?

Tom: [laughs] No. But I watch my movies the way football players watch the tape of last night's game. Before High Tide, I was talking a lot in movies and after that I started shutting up. I am genuinely dominant and aggressive but I'm also passionate. I love hole, but if I can get it without a fight, you'll see me be tender. I'll only be dom to turn on the bottom. Also when there's no talking, you get the wonderful sounds of sex: the slurp of the hold, the cum landing on the forehead, the moans and the groans.

Tim: So by this time obviously, Falcon and all big gay porn studios are using condoms, but it's also before PrEP and even before we know that people with HIV on meds with undetectable virus in their blood means they can't transmit the virus. What was the conversation like around your HIV status?

Tom: My Falcon contract had a statement saying "I'm not HIV-positive," and I said, "I can't sign this." And they said, "That contract is from before we started using condoms, so it's okay. The camera is right on you and they're going to notice if the condom breaks or slips."

Tim: Ah, okay. So as you proceed with your porn career for Falcon from 1996 to 2001, how does it change you?

Tom: I gained the confidence I'd lacked since high school. I did good work. I hit the ball out of the park with every film I did for five years of Falcon and then seven years with Colt.

Tim: And you were the first gay model to sign an exclusive contract with Falcon, yes?

Tom: Yes, meaning that I could shoot only with them. And they make only a few movies a year and were paying me $3,000 a scene, which came to about $12,000 a year.

Tim: What? How did you live on that?

Tom: I was a personal trainer as well, and I'd also do escort work and I'd go-go dance at gay bars around the country for $1500 a night.

Tim: Okay. And then come the 2000s and you start shooting for Colt, whose models are older and very muscle-bear and very hairy. And you become that yourself—and you start bottoming in the films. What was that like?

Tom: Liberating. Again, I'm doing porn to document my real-life sex life as it happens in real time. And Falcon really doesn't get that or care. They were all about that 20-year-old college sophomore, a clean white boy you can take home to mom but who turns into a pig in the bedroom.

Tim; But again, why was the concept of who's clean only white?

Tom: You're reading too much into that. Every studio is the brainchild of its owner, and Falcon's was Chuck Holmes, who was raised in Indiana in the forties, fifties, sixties. All he's known is segregation and his movies are his fantasies, and we can't blame someone if they don't particularly like Black men in their fantasies. His directors and staff were young enough to tell him that if he didn't start doing inclusion, he was going to lose money—and when he did do it [with Night Flight], he got sued.

Tim: They actually sued because the movie was interracial and not because it was gay?

Tom: Yep. So you have to consider that. I think Black on white looks great—especially bareback. The colors against each other look fantastic. But Chuck felt his audience was North Dakota to Texas, not Maine to Florida and not Washington to California. [then the topic slightly shifts to...] When porn changed from Beta to VHS, all the models had to go because their voices were too nasal—just like when some silent-era Hollywood stars didn't survive the transition to talkies because they didn't have good voices. You couldn't find any gay tops who had baritone voices. That's why his star tops were straight and being paid $4,000 while the bottoms were paid $400. I was Falcon's first gay exclusive because Chuck told me I had the right voice.

Tim: Okay, so, one thing that becomes clear once you're with Colt in your mid-thirties is that you are actually very hairy. You had to depilate all that body hair when you were with Falcon?

Tom: I started shaving before I made movies, so I arrived that way at Falcon and they liked it because they wanted all their models to look 20. It took me two hours to shave my whole body properly. I use depilatory cream now. I don't like body hair. It's too itchy and it smells nasty. Even when it's clean, it smells like shampoo. As a bodybuilder, you can't see your [muscle] cuts through it. I like a clean work surface.

Tim: Okay. And how did you leave Falcon to go to Colt?

Tom: The last year I was working for Falcon, I was lying out naked at a private pool when two guys started chatting me up. I thought they wanted to have sex with me, but in fact, they wanted to tell [Colt founder and owner] Jim French about me. I'd actually always wanted to work for Colt but wasn't big [muscular] enough to do so. But by this point I'd put on enough muscle to match the Colt look.

Tim: Did you do steroids?

Tom: Yes—and I still do. I have no secrets about that. In fact, I recommend it to every man over the age of 30, especially if you have low testosterone, but I don't recommend the abuse of it. So anyway, Jim French calls me to talk about photo modeling for him. He says, "I don't shoot stars—I make them." And I said, "You're friends didn't tell you, but I'm already currently a Falcon model."

Tim: He didn't know that, being in the same industry?

Tom: Nope. So I said that he couldn't remake me, that Tom Chase was my star name and I wanted to keep it. I said, "If you publish a photo of me"—because he always started his models as print models for the Colt magazine— "and you call me John Lightfoot, you're gonna look stupid." So he says, "Okay, we'll keep Tom Chase." And he starts photographing me, and then I start making Colt films.

Tim: What was the biggest difference between Falcon and Colt?

Tom: Falcon knows how to film sex—Colt doesn't. Falcon figured out that by putting the camera right between your crotch for a close-up penetration shot. That and a cum shot make the money. Colt is more medium- to long-shots, master shots, watching guys have sex across a field, but usually the camera is not up the butt crack. It's more about two men bonding than explicit sex. Also, Colt scenes were more [stand-alone] nickolodeon scenes, never plotted, and a shoot was three to four hours instead of Falcon's eight to ten. Also, just to note, I actually arranged the sale of Colt to John Rutherford, my director at Falcon.

Tim: Okay—and so you start bottoming with Colt?

Tom: No, I"d actually bottomed in my fourth year at Falcon, with Mike Branson. I said to Chuck Holmes, "That's a moneymaker, to have two notorious tops vie for each other's hole. I just met your new model, Mike Branson—you should put us in a scene together and I'll get fucked, and Chuck said to me, 'Mary, you're crazy." I said, 'Chuck, we had an agreement to document my real-life sex life, and this is what I'm doing now.'" So we made the film.

Tim: How was it being fucked by Mike Branson?

Tom: I'd never taken a dick that big. They actually edited out all the time it took him to get inside me, which would've shown that I'm not that seasoned. But my verbal cue to him, which was, "Go easy—just the tip," was left in the movie.

Tim: You've said you don't like effeminacy, but of course stereotypically bottoming is associated with being the lesser, the weaker, the smaller, submissive, etc. So what was that like for you?

Tom: I was always hanging out with jocks and dudes who liked to take dick up the ass, like Colt's Jake Tanner. So for me, bottoming brings out that masculine side. It's a favor to a masculine friend who needs release. I'm never seeking it out, but I'll bend over for a buddy, which to me is very hot and sexy.

Tim: So for you it's definitively not about being the submissive bitch or reduced to a hole to use, which some bottoms really get off on.

Tom: No. I like those kinds of bottoms but I'm not like that. And I'd prefer to have other [masculine] guys like me to fuck.

Tim: Okay. So when we started, you said that this, the 2000s, is also the time you go into a really dark phase personally. There is a cliché that doing porn ruins your soul. Did porn have anything to do with your dark phase?

Tom: Not at all. I would tell you if it were. Porn for me was my movie star dream. Wanting to be famous but thinking I was going to die in 10 years, so there was no time to go to MGM. But the dark stuff from the inside, the stuff I'd pushed down for years, started coming up around 2004.

Tim: It was primarily related to your parents?

Tom: To that one event when I was five when my father rejected my watermelon pillow gift.

Tim: That was so cruel of him. Did he reject it because he thought it was too gay or feminine or something?

Tom: He just said, "Don't you ever buy something like this for me again." Like scolding a cat for bringing you a bird in its mouth.

Tim: Why do you think that moment took on such weight for you? Was it a very primal experience of being rejected by your father?

Tom: In hindsight, I realized my father was a narcissist. At the time, my gut instinct said to me, "Don't let him raise you." But when I put up that wall against him, I did it to everyone else. A wall went up inside me. That was the darkness. I put myself in prison.

Tim: So what does this dark period feel like? Anger? Sadness? Loneliness?

Tom: Just this dull unhappiness, general malaise, a lot of effort to stay positive and keep a smile on. At this time, my smile looks like I was about to throw up.

Al while I was making movies. Finally I quit making movies around 2010 because it was getting to be too much—the pain and rage toward the unfairness of being raised in the U.S., being told it's a free country when I didn't feel free, being told I could pursue happiness despite all the hypocrisy that comes from the heterosexual white community regarding anything different. The hypocrisy of Christianity—touting love but showing hate. That pissed me off.

Tim: So this overlaps with your moving to Portland in 2012?

Tom: Actually this dark phase starts in 2002 in Palm Springs, just having recently broken up with a boyfriend. I'm almost 40 and I've never really had a home, stability. I saw this to your audience of gay men: we get hurt very early on through rejection or correction, then we get called names and take it personally, and when we do that, we bury ourselves alive and die on the inside and get angry, bitter and nasty, and that's what happened to me. By the time we meet each other at gay bars, we've all been dumped off at the dog pound. I don't think there's anything special about my case. We're all hurt. But I caught it in time. You have to destroy all the thinking where you used to be a victim or blame others.

Tim: Was there an actual moment of breakdown?

Tom: Yes, I was at wit's end financially. I fell to the floor, alone in my condo in Palm Springs, and called out to God to take my life and fix it, goddamit! Then I cried myself to sleep. But the next day I noticed I was starting to behave differently to people, calling them out on their shit, like, "You've come over my house five times in a row and every time, you ask me to make you a meal." I wasn't drawing boundaries. So in order to fix my life, I need to start clearing it out. I called on my Higher Power of love.

Tim: Which is a 12-step term. Did you seek any outside help like therapy or 12-step meetings or—

Tom: None. My conscience was telling me not to, saying, "Trust this process—this is love guiding you out of misery." So I started getting rid of friends, then family, job, money, clothes, property. I was using crystal meth and was very vulnerable, so I went back to my mom and dad, clinging to the idea that my parents were the best. But then I had to face that they were part of the problem. And that I had to get rid of myself, ego death, take off my diaper and let the shit fall away. It was very sobering and upsetting, to the point that I did meth to medicate myself through it. But when you do the kind of work I'm doing, drugs don't cover up anything. I learned that real quick. So I go home at 40 and all my friends are at the peaks of their careers, and I'm at the opposite end. I'm scared, broke, living with my parents again. And then it gets worse because I realize my father is a narcissist and the toxicity I've been carrying through my life comes from them, and they have to go. So I cut ties with them and my siblings over five years.

Tim: Even your lesbian sister?

Tom: Yes—because the self I had become had to go, including every relationship. I told them, "I'm cutting ties with you because we are all toxic when we're together." Eventually I reunited with her.

Tim: But you're living with your parents at the same time?

Tom: I told them this in an email four months after I moved out.

Tim: So this happens before you go to Colt?

Tom: It's happening in the middle of making videos for Colt. I start with them in 2001 and then this shit hits the fan and I take a three-year hiatus. And I'm doing drugs—

Tim: —which so many gay men including myself have struggled with. Did anything good come out of the drugs?

Tom: All of these friends of mine were having having sex on drugs, which looked like sloppy fun. I thought I wanted to be a sloppy bottom too and get fucked by 15 guys in a day, but it never happened. With crystal, you're either cleaning or fucking, and I ended up with a broom and a mop, which I knew at the time was a metaphor for what I was doing inside. I never got to be a whore. Instead I'm cleaning and waxing my parents' house.

Tim: Okay. But amid this you eventually go back to shooting for Colt.

Tom: My first movie back was in 2006, Naked Muscles: The New Breed with Carlo Masi. If you look at the stills, I'm hollow inside and my eyes are empty. And every movie after that is a tired version of me getting through the day. By 2009, when I make my last film, The Big One, for Butch Bear, I was on the cusp of the worst part of this journey, the removal of the inside of me.

Tim: So in fact you are not enjoying those Colt years?

Tom: I wasn't enjoying anything. But for me, work is also a holiday from unhappiness.

Tim: Did your onscreen persona change from the Falcon years?

Tom: I got a lot quieter on film. A lot of the reason we talk is ego, and my ego is fading away. I become quieter, slower and more tender. No more trying to choke someone with my dick.

Tim: Did you know that The Big One was going to be your last film to date?

Tom: In a way, yes. I had pretty much achieved what I wanted with Colt. The Big One was bareback per my request. I wanted to treat myself to being the bottom in a bareback video. I contacted them and they knew who I was and jumped at the chance to work with me.

Tim: And then you thought, "That's it—I'm done"?

Tom: When this [inner] work started, it took precedence over everything. I'd cry, scream, throw up 12 hours a day for five years straight.

Tim: Whoa, that sounds really intense. Did anyone say that you needed medical help?

Tom: Yes, my roommate who lived with me. But my conscience told me not to, and I'm glad I didn't. I actually did briefly go to a therapist, but when love is at work in you, anyone external—

Tim: Okay. So what about the 2010s, the past ten years or so, your late forties and your fifties?

Tom: In 2010 I got my last award, in New Zealand, for a Colt film. I'm proud that I won trophies in the nineties, the 2000s and the 2010s.

Tim: So would you like to make more films? Tom: Yeah—a few more with gray hair and tattoos. I was just talking to [porn producer] Chi Chi LaRue about it. I told her I'm ready to make the 60-year-old silver fox version of Tom Chase, but I'll only do it with a twink topping me. These days, I'm looking for a boy rather than a boyfriend.

Tim: Meaning what exactly?

Tom: There are some older gay men who are good at being with younger men. Like my 28-year-old boyfriend when I was 16.

Tim: My issue with dating much younger guys is that they'll probably dump you eventually, because they have so much more exploring and living to do.

Tom: I've been that younger guy. Yes, he'll outgrown you, but if you're a truly loving man—

Tim: But don't you want to find someone closer to your own age?

Tom: My best friend and roommate is Gordon. We have living wills for each other. We're not lovers and we never pretended to be, but we have sex and we're each other's rock. So that allows me to have [sexual relations] with a younger guy because in my mid-fifties I would not invest [seriously] in someone 20 years younger than I. You can love or fuck a friend but you don't have to marry them. The only reason to marry is to protect money or have children. And right now I have some good money but not millions.

Tim: How is your financial health?

Tom: Good, as a result of the work I've done on the inside. I have five figures in investments. As a personal trainer, my income goes up to $100,000 yearly when things are going well. And when my parents passed away, I inherited money. Otherwise, I don't know where I would be.

Tim: So what is Portland like? It's not a place people associate with porn stars, like San Francisco or L.A.

Tom: I moved here after visiting my parents. So, in 2010, I started reading the Bible. I read it three times and fell in love with scripture. My mom had always wanted me to read the Bible. So I visited my mom and told her I was reading the Bible with joy. She told me to get up and walked me to the front door and kicked me out without saying anything.

Tim: What? Did you ever discuss why she did that?

Tom: No. She came over the next day and didn't explain herself. I told her I'd be moving out of state and she'd never see me again. She helped me pack, then I said, "You have to go," and that was the last time I saw her before she died. But she was already dead on the inside.

Tim: Did your parents ever say anything to you about your porn work?

Tom: I never told them, but I'm sure my Bible-thumper sister did.

Tim: How would you feel if you knew they saw your work?

Tom: I'm proud of my work. Except for the fact of my dick in someone's ass, I think my dad would be proud that I did something well for 15 years. I think my mom would be very disapproving. So anyway, about Portland, Gordon and I moved here because I remembered coming here to go-go dance one night in the nineties and found it such a squeaky-clean city with a lot of natural beauty.

Tim: But as you said, the daily crying continued into your Portland chapter.

Tom: The worst year was 2014. I wanted to kill myself. Then I asked myself, "Tom, what is it you want to stop? The noise in your head or your actual life?" It was the former. I definitely did not want to kill myself.

Tim: When do you start coming out of this dark period?

Tom: In 2015. It ended when I sent an email to the last person who needed to be cut out from my life.

Tim: Okay. So what has your life been like the past decade or so?

Tom: I spent 2015 to 2019 recovering from this long period of crying, trying to grasp what had just happened with me. I didn't realize until 2018 that it was ego death. Then I started eating again, working out and getting healthy. And in 2019, I invited love to come into my life.

Tim: Who is in your life besides Gordon?

Tom: The people I've handpicked. Gordon and I purposely did not make friends when we first moved here. Then we started with sex sites. Sex is very important to me, and all my shame about butt-fucking and cum-swallowig is now gone. I only want to have friends in my life who I can have sex with.

Tim: Oh, wow. So you don't want friends you don't have sex with?

Tom: I have three or four very good people in my life around my age who are sexual with me and on top of their game. So it's working out for me. When you do this [inner] work, you become aligned with the universe. I just have to walk a straight line in my life and the money, sex and friends come after me.

Tim: So what is a typical day like?

Tom: I wake up at 4:30am and eat my breakfast and coffee and read the news. I have five scrambled eggs, a bowl of oatmeal and blueberries. Then I join my friends for our 7:30am daily workout until 9am. We train for bodybuilding competition so they weights are heavy—squats, leg presses. After the workout I have a protein shake, then lunch at 12pm is a lean hamburger patty with broccoli and yams, then 3pm is chicken with yams, 6pm dinner is chicken and rice and broccoli, and 9pm is another protein shake before bed. I fit my training clients in at 3:30pm and 5:30pm. Otherwise I putz around the house and watch TV.

I also drink a gallon of water a day. Once a month I'll go out for a few cocktails and fried food.

Tim: Do you still do drugs at all?

Tom: I'll smoke some pot to go to bed, but no more recreational designer drugs.

Tim: And you've said you want to make more porn.

Tom: I hope so. I want to do it until I'm 70. I'm having nips and tucks done to keep looking youthful, and I'll probably have a facelift.

Tim: What do you think about contemporary porn? I read recently an interview where you said "I enjoy watching Austin Wolf and Tim Kruger. Sometimes, I wish I was John Thomas or Henrik Sommer." Who are both bottoms.

Tom: I'm into skinny skateboarder types now in my own sex life. When I watch porn, I love any bottom whose hole will gape. The smaller and younger they are, the better. Which is weird, because my compass usually points to silver foxes. But apparently guys my age are in big demand with younger guys. I was the same way when I was young. I liked to be taken care of when I was young, so now I like to do the same.

Tim: Why?

Tom: I don't know! Recently, when I serendipitously met someone younger and he took a liking to me, we made out and had sex and his hole smelled like puppy breath, which was fantastic. So I connected with another young guy.

Tim: Do you think today's young gays have different beliefs or attitudes?

Tom: A lot of young guys now are into wearing panties, silk stockings and negligees—there's a lot of trans going on.

Tim: Is that interesting or hot to you in some way?

Tom: I want to be very careful and say that I support everybody's individual expression as long as it doesn't harm other people. I support the trans community and vote with them in mind, because anybody who's gonna fuck with the trans community is gonna fuck with the gay community. However, it's not what I like. I like guys with deep voices and muscles. I'll sit down and have coffee or a meal with a trans person as easily as another gay guy. I'll host you in my home and you'll be treated like gold. But I will turn you down for sex, and I do not have to defend or explain myself. If I remember to use the right pronoun, I do, but if I don't, I don't like being corrected.

Tim: Okay, so what are your big goals for the rest of your life?

Tom: In the inner work I did, my conscience told me that I will live to 120. All that crying was a release of energy that would've killed me.

Tim: Are you really sure you're going to live to 120? I think there is only one person in the world known to live that long, and even that case has been contested.

Tom: Yes, people have the possibility of living to 120.

Tim: So that would mean you are at the halfway point of your life right now. That's more than 60 more years to live. What do you want to do with all that time?

Tom: The first thing is to establish a permanent and stable home. I'm tired of moving around. The next is to finish up my film career. I'd like to make two more movies when I turn 60, which is in about two years.Then I'd like to shift my focus to social, empire-building, making my money and becoming a pillar of the community in Portland or Palm Springs. An empire that's not porn—like a golf shop. Definitely not politics. More good comes from doing charity benefits. I want to travel more. And to nurture the celebrity of Tom Chase out of porn and into other things. I would love to do a commercial for toothpaste or a gay travel company, and be on a game show.

Tim: Okay. Let me ask you two questions I always end with. The first is, what is your biggest regret in life?

Tom: Shutting out my dad at five. It took me 20 years to undo that.

Tim: And what are you most proud of?

Tom: Can I say two things? Sure, I'm proud of my porn career, but I'm proud of myself for doing the work I did on the inside.

Tim: And what about aging? Do you still get cruised? Do you ever feel like you are becoming invisible?

Tom: If I'm getting cruised, I'm not aware—honestly. I like validation just like the next guy. I get that on Facebook when I post a picture of myself. I've been saying for decades that the best thing anyone can do is to work out. I mean bodybuilding. That's the fountain of youth, diet and exercise. It can completely overhaul the way you look and make you feel really good.

Tim: And to finish, I do think many people would like to hear from you: How do you fuck someone well?

Tom: The first time I ever got fucked well, I was 19 and lay on my side and this guy fucked me from behind. So in my fifties, I started fucking everyone that way and they love it, especially if they're about 50, because it's hard to pin their legs back. So I cradle them in my arms and kiss them on the neck. And we don't talk. ◉

Thank you for reading and supporting The Caftan Chronicles! I’ll see you in August for another chat. —Tim

And one comment to the article:

“ Seaguy 11 hr ago I’m 49 and Tom can fuck me on my side anytime he wants!”

THE END.

FUCKING FINALLY.

For you, DLers, I will do anything.

R163 a million of Bill Taylor's BLESSINGS unto you for your good work and kind contribution! There are just too many excellent lines in this trainwreck, like a buffet of all my favorite foods and I don't know where to start.

He sounds eminently sensible.

Sounds like he was doing meth during the five years he was crying and cleaning house all day (doing his inner work).

He only wants to do 2 more movies yet is contemplating a face lift in order to do more movies. Doesn't make sense.

I really enjoyed the interview.

It's a pleasant and enlightening exchange.

He sounds quite stable after admitting how unstable things got.

Sexy daddy bona fide.

He's the Brendad Ickson of the pron world.

[quote] I want to travel more. And to nurture the celebrity of Tom Chase out of porn and into other things. I would love to do a commercial for toothpaste or a gay travel company, and be on a game show.

"Hi, I'm Tom Chase! You may remember me from all the dicks I once put in my mouth... but now I'm only putting in Triple-Protection Aqua-Fresh®!

Thank you, anonymous poster who bought the one-month subscription and put in all of the interview for us. That was incredibly nice of you.

It's interesting to read the whole thing. He sounds like he's doing okay, but he does sound really fucked up by his multiple rejections from his family. All of his plans for the future seem a little unrealistic, but it's good to have goals. It does seem weird he's only willing to be friends with men he can regularly have sex with--that's something I do not understand.

Drugs fried his brain. He thinks he is egoless but his entire world is wrapped up in the body and masculinity and bullshit. So funny, and sad.

“his entire world is wrapped up in the body and masculinity and bullshit.”

And also creeping pedophilia. Don’t forget the creeping pedophilia.

Is the punk band name "Tom Chase's Watermelon Pillow" taken?

[quote] And also creeping pedophilia. Don’t forget the creeping pedophilia.

You clearly have no idea what pedophilia is. How is a man who prefers younger guys 20-40 a pedo?

“When I discovered NAMBLA, it made sense to me”

Let's fuck!!!!

r174, read r175 again. Then read it a second time.

THAT'S how he's a pedo.

“The smaller and younger they are, the better.”

Hey, Tom, we get it -- no fats, NO FEMMES. Sad to see people still flying this flag so proudly.

Again, he stated his limits clearly. 20 to 40. He is not a pedophile or even a pederast.

He was my biggest porn crush as a teenager. Reading this interview soured me on him a bit.

Seriously, R180? Search the article for recurrences of the word "boy." Textbook pederast, even without the NAMBLA reference (which removes any doubt).

“The smaller and younger they are, the better.”

Put a pin in this, r180, and wait for the eventual arrest.

His father was a narcissist, unlike Tom who spends his days lifting weights, counting calories, preening and fucking. He put in the work!!

Looking at his pictures, he honestly seems pretty flamboyant in some of them. Not that that's bad. But it's just that he prides himself on being so "above" femme men. He clearly is very self-loathing.

I like this scene he did with Tim Kelly.

Good God, he is a walking catastrophe. I feel sorry for the people around him in his life.

He's glad he didn't go to therapy because he was "filled with love" while crying and barfing for 12 hours a day? 🙄 That roommate sounds like the most sensible one. Why on earth did the interviewer not continue that part? It actually seemed like some of the interview was left out.

He's doing meth and moves back home with his parents, then decides to blame them and the rest of his family for his problems, and moves out and sends them a "goodbye forever" message? I love how he just kind of slips in that he's DOING METH AT THE TIME HE'S BARFING AND CRYING FOR TWELVE HOURS A DAY, perhaps that had something to do with it?

The whole "documentary" thing sounds like an excuse he made so he would have some bigger purpose for doing porn other than he wanted to be famous and had a big dick.

If he's freed himself from his ego and obvious narcissism now, what must be have been like when he HAD an ego?

I am going to bet the main reason he is solvent currently is because of his inheritance.

He seems kind of proud of the fact that he doesn't want any femmes and young bois only in his personal sex life - he mentions it multiple times. Then he talks about fucking fifty years olds like he's doing it recently so I am going to assume he is still escorting as it doesn't sound like he would be unless they were paying him.

I'm glad he agrees with me on what his best porn movie was. 😌 It was the only movie he made during that period when he was fully rock hard most of the time and that's what made it good, even if the bottom didn't like him (for apparently good reasons).

I thought the post above about his hookup ad was a parody at first but now I see it is actually legitimate.

NO... WATERMELON... PILLOWS!

What's watermelon pillows doing under the Christmas tree when I told you: no watermelon pillows EVER? I work and work 'till I'm half-dead, and I hear people saying, "He's getting old." And what do I get? A son... who cares as much about the pillows I give him... as he cares about me. What's watermelon pillows doing under this Christmas tree? Answer me.

I buy you beautiful quilts, and you treat them like they were some dishrag! You do! Three hundred dollar quilt next to a watermelon pillow. We'll see how many you've got if they're hidden somewhere. We'll see... we'll see. Get out of that bed. All of this is coming out. Out. Out. Out. Out. Out. Out. You've got any more? We're gonna see how many watermelon pillows you've got in your closet. Watermelon pillows, why? Why? Thomas, get out of that bed! Get out of that bed. You live in the most beautiful house in suburban Dallas and you don't care if your quilts are contaminated by watermelon pillows! And your room looks like some two-dollar-a-week furnished room in some two-bit back street town in Oklahoma! Get up! Get up! Clean up this mess!

Further proof porn attracts damaged people.

How do you spend years “working on yourself” and still sound completely fucked up?

The interviewer needed to get more information from Chase on Mike Branson. I’d have loved to have learned more about him.

[quote] How do you spend years “working on yourself” and still sound completely fucked up?

Because he was on meth for those years. He's delusional if he counts the meth years as his "working on himself" years.

Thanks, generous poster above, for posting the full article. You really took one for the team.

His dad sounds like a typical conservative Christian of that time period and no kid decides at five that they are never going to get close to their father. While I am sure it was traumatic as he seems to have it burned into his memory, the other stuff sounds like he backfilled later to try to find a reason why he was so fucked up and settled on that.

He sounds extremely bitter about his relationship with his parents. The scene where he tells his mom he read the Bible and she tells him to leave seems like it's missing a massive amount of background context and some other details.

Since he doesn't see therapists and since he is quoting bits from twelve step programs I am going to guess he is a group joiner - he certainly likes to talk about himself and reveal all sorts of things unprompted. The interviewer didn't have to try at all to get information out of him.

[quote] Tom: A lot of young guys now are into wearing panties, silk stockings and negligees—there's a lot of trans going on.

He's right. Seeing otherwise hot guys wearing bare midriff shirts with glittery unicorns on them and lingerie or high heels is an instant boner killer. The funny bit is that you see that ALL THE TIME with the straight(ish) married guys on Grindr - the ones you never want to have sex with ever. So the young kids think they're being all gender bending and hot and shit but in reality they're just channeling their inner closeted married straight guy.

Of course, if Tom was on Twitter, he would be so cancelled right now for saying that he wouldn't sleep with trans people.

He's also nuts to think he's going to live to 120. People who live to 120 don't do the things to their bodies that he has done over his lifetime. Between the drug abuse, the depression, the HIV, and all the other drugs he will be lucky to live to be 80. Since he mentions life extension I'm guessing he is into Nootropics as well. Surprised he didn't mention crypto.

[quote]Black

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🙄

The pillow that started it all....any 5yo boy should know not to give something like this to his father.

R185 he is one of the porn stars I remember from that time period that acted butch on camera but was a mincing queen in real life. He does have natural gayvoice as I recall when he isn't trying to sound straight.

R194 that's not the pillow is it? I was picturing a pillow shaped like a watermelon half without the cutesy saying. But it does seem odd that his dad would have issues it it were just a pillow shaped like a watermelon. Maybe it was an extremely gay watermelon.

I pictured the pillow shaped like a watermelon wedge.

I think the father sensed he was gay for a long, long time. Chase, himself, said he knew he was gay at age 5. The pillow was just confirming, for the father, what the father suspected.

Is this a gay watermelon pillow Thomas?

I cant image that 'watermelon' cushions meant anything back when he was 5 or 6. They weren't even made then surely? I think that's a beat up!

Too bad he wasn’t available during those Jeopardy! host tryouts in 2021. Sounds like he would’ve been mentally healthy enough and he definitely has the smarts for it.

Oh, but wait! The facelift…He hadn’t had the facelift.

I read the whole interview, and….wow. The poster who called him the Brendad of porn nailed it. He’s nuts!

My favorite part of the interview was the section about telling his Mom he reads the Bible, then she walks him to the door & kicks him out without saying anything. But she comes over the next day & he bids her a permanent farewell, but she’s already dead inside anyway.

Am I the only one who Lol’ed throughout this mess?

R114 Did you rewind them or leave them where you stopped so when he popped them in he could determine the moment you had cum?

A few comments…

1. Right.

Tim: Okay, so how do you connect with Falcon? Tom: I wrote them a letter saying "I want to be called Tom Chase and I want to be a model and document the sexual and physical maturation of a gay boy into a man. I'm currently 30 and I look 18, so I intend to bodybuild and grow hair and grow into a man over a period of 15 years."

2. How do you not ask more about the escorting? Even Tommy Defendi talks about his escorting days and he is straight and out of porn.

Tom: Yes, meaning that I could shoot only with them. And they make only a few movies a year and were paying me $3,000 a scene, which came to about $12,000 a year. Tim: What? How did you live on that? Tom: I was a personal trainer as well, and I'd also do escort work and I'd go-go dance at gay bars around the country for $1500 a night. Tim: Okay.

3. Dumb advice.

Tim: Did you do steroids? Tom: Yes—and I still do. I have no secrets about that. In fact, I recommend it to every man over the age of 30, especially if you have low testosterone, but I don't recommend the abuse of it.

4. Ew.

Tom: My best friend and roommate is Gordon. We're not lovers and we never pretended to be, but we have sex and we're each other's rock.

5. Ew.

Tom: I only want to have friends in my life who I can have sex with. Tim: Oh, wow. So you don't want friends you don't have sex with? Tom: I have three or four very good people in my life around my age who are sexual with me and on top of their game. So it's working out for me.

6. He mentioned he was raised upper middle class and his father was a prominent pediatrician. No way does he make $100k a year from personal training.

Tim: How is your financial health? Tom: Good, as a result of the work I've done on the inside. I have five figures in investments. As a personal trainer, my income goes up to $100,000 yearly when things are going well. And when my parents passed away, I inherited money. Otherwise, I don't know where I would be.

His ideal sex partner is basically a unicorn. If I understand correctly, he's looking for Mike Branson or Abe from Sean Cody in the body of Armond Rizzo or Austin Young.

The interview is disillusioning. But maybe it explains why he was such a formidable and dominant top: his need to assert his ego is remarkable, and is probably what makes him so good at topping.

Yes, he’ll surely live to 120 being HIV+ and taking steroids. I hear steroids are good for your heart.

Idiot.

His scene with Kevin Williams was awesome.

He was my number one fantasy when I was a gay teenager. I would have given a lot to meet him and fuck him. My favorite movie of him is Hightide. And now he just looks like an old parking attendant with dreadful tattoos. Sigh.

He was my number one fantasy when I was a gay teenager. I would have given a lot to meet him and fuck him. My favorite movie of him is Hightide. And now he just looks like an old parking attendant with dreadful tattoos. Sigh.

He lost me when he dissed effeminate men, as if they are inferior to him. All that self-help "work" on himself and he still can't connect the dots and see that his father was rejecting effeminate him when he rejected the watermelon pillow.

Why is watermelon effeminate ?

You'll have to ask his father.

Bullying gets all the attention, but the truth is, we never get over our fathers and male peers rejecting us in earlier childhood when they started to realise we were different. That hurts more than any teenage punch in the face or gay slur ever did.

Aside from the ugly tattoos he still looks hot.

[quote]Tom: I only want to have friends in my life who I can have sex with. Tim: Oh, wow. So you don't want friends you don't have sex with?

Fine interviewing skills right there!

I don't understand why people in this thread are saying he's so good at topping.

He's flaccid in almost all of his videos. He is wearing a cock ring during the Colt years and that plus his added bulk make his cock look shorter. And even the cock ring doesn't keep him fully hard. The primary requirement for a top is to be rock hard.

He's not handsome, at best he has a mildly pleasant face. He looks better with the beard but I think his hottest years were when he was first starting out.

Also, most of his interview is in bad need of a massive SURE, JAN.

R212 there's a lot of context to that story we clearly aren't getting.

The fact that he refuses to ever see a therapist and thinks he can fix all his own problems is a big sign of a narcissist, if the rest of the ego and blather didn't give you a big hint. Given how much he seems to live in his own head, I'm wondering how much of his account of his father and mother and siblings takes place in there, too.

He also mentions how he read the Bible a bunch during a clearly manic phase and he had accepted the joy or whatever but at multiple parts of his interview he's slamming Christians and "bible bangers". He comes across as extremely bitter.

[quote] He lost me when he dissed effeminate men, as if they are inferior to him

He didn't dis them. He simply said effeminate men do not turn him on sexually. I'm sure you have types you don't get turned on to sexually, so are you dissing them?

Him not seeing a shrink is probably the smartest thing he's ever done for himself. I've known several of them and without fail they're the most fucked up people I've ever known.

His dick wont be as big at his age and with his fupa. Plus he wants to bottom. Much to do about nothing.

R220 can you truly read that interview and project your own dislike of therapists on it so much that you think he would be WORSE by applying actual therapy?

A therapist can be fucked up in their life and still be a good therapist. I think a lot of them enter the profession as a means of wanting to have more control over their own lives. So I wouldn't necessarily expect a therapist to be perfect before I'd sit down with them.

I've used multiple therapists over the years, each one was different in style and assistance, none were perfect, but all of them helped to a degree. A lot of times it's nice just to have someone to talk to and verbally work out issues.

Much better than if you talk to a friend who is going to want to try to fix everything. A therapist who spends most of their time giving you life advice is not a good therapist.

He's convinced himself he is living his life as some sort of documentary and example to gay men. He's an example all right, but it's of untreated mental illness.

How big must your ego be to believe that nonsense? Why would someone want to look to him as an example of anything, except of what NOT to do?

Oh, and he wants a young kid mainly for the sex but also because he thinks he can mold them before they learn enough to be wary of/not be manipulated by him. Someone who isn't going to know/have enough life experience to see he's bad news. I doubt he can afford a sugar baby though. His bank account seems as falsely inflated as his ego.

I mean, come on! That whole thing read like a parody, but it wasn’t.

R219 he actually did diss them in the context of the interview. He talks enough about masculinity and his need for it in his life that he is clearly thinking less of feminine men because they don't try to be masculine like he does. You can read the interview and pick that up quite clearly.

He may hate his father but he seems to be everything he is claiming his father was. You can hear his dad's voice in those comments. But he has twisted it in his head so he thinks HE is the source of that.

If he's pulling in up to 100k/year in income and his parents were "quite wealthy" as he claimed, then either they didn't have much left to divvy up when they died, or "quite wealthy" means something very different to him than it does to me. From what we can see it doesn't appear he lives very high on the hog.

To live in Highland Park in Dallas, you have to be rich.

He seems like he has used therapy to construct a narrative of conveniently blaming others for his problems rather than figuring out how to heal and grow as a person. He also seems incredibly self important and thinks he can outthink/outrun his inevitable future: getting old.

*It seems

[quote]He lost me when he dissed effeminate men

You must be new to DL and haven't had a chance to read more threads.

[quote]Your hole is important to me.

I'm putting that in my wedding vows.

In his extended interview in the extras of the Seed Money documentary, you could tell he had narcissist traits. This new interview makes it even more obvious. He doesn't seem to realize he is though.

[quote] I'm putting that in my wedding vows.

It already was in mine!

It's interesting to me he lives with this guy Gordon and they regularly have sex, and he's clearly emotionally quite close to him, but he will only call him his "friend," not his partner or boyfriend, and talks about his plans to find someone else. Gordon sounds like he's really learned how to settle.

[quote]r28 as I entered into homosexuality, I needed the advice and guidance of older men.

He really did - the advice being to stay out of porn and avoid tattoos.

But some tramp-stamped tramps just won’t listen…

[quote] If he's pulling in up to 100k/year in income and his parents were "quite wealthy" as he claimed, then either they didn't have much left to divvy up when they died, or "quite wealthy" means something very different to him than it does to me. From what we can see it doesn't appear he lives very high on the hog.

Well, remember, when his parents died half went to taxes, and the rest was probably split up three ways among the three children.

He also said he pulls in $100K in a good year, which means most of the time he does not make as much.

Finally, housing prices and rent in Portland are ridiculous. It's a very expensive city to live in.

Say something nice. When a porn actor, whore, ex-junkie, masc muscle emotional basket-case makes it to 60, he deserves congratulations and a certain respect.

[quote]R115 he was in his late 40s/early 50s by this time? Isn't that too old to be rehashing the stuffed watermelon Daddy didn't want?

Have you walked in his watermelon pillow shoes??

NO ONE really gets over their dad throwing a watermelon pillow gift back in their face!!

"When a porn actor, whore, ex-junkie, masc muscle emotional basket-case makes it to 60, he deserves congratulations and a certain respect."

And also antibiotics

His whoring and his drug addiction were not things that happened to him; they were problems he chose for himself.

Also, he's not sixty yet: he's only 57, according to the article.

I feel a special kinship with this part:

[quote] Tom: I wrote Falcon a letter saying "I want to be called Tom Chase and I want to be a model... I'm currently 30 and I look 18...”

[quote] "I'm currently 30 and I look 18...”

That's when he KNEW he was gay!

[quote] Much to do about nothing.

Oh, DEAR!

Does he still escort?

Why does he want his bottom’s hole to be loose and gaping ? I thought everyone wants a tight clean hole.

What an unbelievably self-deluded train wreck. Proof positive that meth really does fry your brain.

R188 I love you for taking the time to type that.

He knows a therapist would call him out on his bull shit. Shame he thinks cutting out people is the only solution. Isolation makes mental health worse. Especially in people dealing with unresolved anger.

Tom talks a lot about what he wants but not what he gives. You want family and friends to show love but have you ever shown them unconditional affection?

He's a freakin' mess. There's no rhyme or reason for his rationale about any of it, beginning with his showing clear signs of a narcissistic personality disorder mixed with the consequences of multiple substance abuse, on through isolating from family and friends and down to delusionally dreaming of a "return" to porn at 60 and 70! Wow. And he calls this "the work I've done on myself." Wow, wow, wow. This is not going to end happily.

Can Tom be a character on the reboot of In Treatment? Uzo Aduba's face listening to his bullshit would be fantastic to see.

This bit about not enjoying working with Matthew Anders just made me think MARY!

[quote]We had no chemistry. He didn't like my energy, which put me off to him. So our scene was supposed to be [very romantic] making love, which I had not done. The scene starts with us cuddling and walking together in nature. I realized I couldn't rely on his natural attraction to me to make the scene work. So I broke a promise I'd made to myself, which was that I'd never show my vulnerable side on camera. I saved that for real boyfriends. On film, I'd only be the ass-slapping top. But that day, the only tool I had was the truth of who I really am, which is a tender, loving man. So in High Tide, you see the real Tom Chase for the first time.

I'm glad he didn't badmouth Tristan Paris or Christopher Scott, two of Falcon's most amazing bottoms, both of whom he fucked.

"Falcon knows how to film sex—Colt doesn't. Falcon figured out that by putting the camera right between your crotch for a close-up penetration shot. "

I hate that shot. I want the fucking zoomed out, showing the guys' bodies, showing the facial expression of the bottom, etc.

Boy, after reading this interview my own life seems so much more together than I'd thought just a few days ago!

I thought the same thing, R253.

The most shocking thing is how little one is paid for porn. Only $3,000 per scene and you might only do a handful of scenes a year? I assume all porn stars must have a good sugar daddy or another job or two to stay afloat.

Porn today is nothing like his heyday. They can make a lot more now through "amateur".

[quote] His whoring and his drug addiction were not things that happened to him; they were problems he chose for himself.

The whoring, yes, but the addiction, no. He may have chosen to do drugs, but he did not chose for his body to become addicted to them. That's not something you know is going to happen, until it happens.

Cult of AA LOON at R257.

That whole interview read like the ramblings of someone high on coke or speed. Delusions of grandeur, blaming others for any or all problems and completely self obsessed.

[quote] The whoring, yes, but the addiction, no. He may have chosen to do drugs, but he did not chose for his body to become addicted to them. That's not something you know is going to happen, until it happens.

Then he shouldn't have done meth multiple times. That was entirely his choice.

[quote] I assume all porn stars must have a good sugar daddy or another job or two to stay afloat.

Yes, prostitution.

At least he hasn't gone the scat route like Donnie Russo!

I've had sex with him a couple times, but it was years ago. It was just sex, because he's someone who I would never date, or even be seen in public with. He cruised me harder than any guy I've ever encountered. He's one of those guys who is always cruising and looking for sex. In other words, he's a sex addict. I ran into him a few years later in P-Town, where I think he was bartending at the time.

Jokes and snarky comments aside, there's something super sad about a 58 year old that can't get over how his parents were mean, homophobic assholes. I'm sure his extreme narcissism, drug abuse, and mental illness play a big part, but it's sad to see someone at that age that never got professional help or realized that at some point you aren't defined by who your parents wanted you to be.

There's a statute of limitations on childhood trauma.

R263, how was the sex? I always wonder what pron stars are like when they aren’t “on”

I want to hear about sex with Tom Chase too. Was it before he had his tattoos? Did he top or bottom?

When we were in touch a few years ago, this was his newest tattoo. Makes his claims a top… strange, as he was clear they were loads received.

Tom Moore, aka Tom Chase, seems extremely delusional and narcissistic. Not an appealing combination.

I predict a sad ending and I think Gordon the roommate / fuckbuddy /bff is probably keeping Tom from utter mayhem in his life.

Financially, he is 58 and has “five figures” in investments. That’s not much, especially if it’s $25,000 as opposed to $85,000.

He does not make $100K a year. He doesn’t have the personality/energy for sustaining personal training as a career. My guess is he still has a few escort clients and that Gordon pays most of the household bills.

Whatever inheritance he received from his parents/pediatrician father was likely split 3 ways and probably was not all that much. That could be his “five figure investments.” His father was probably born in the late 1920s/early 1930s and pediatricians tend to retire earlier than other medical doctors. Perhaps he retired in about 2000. Plus, being a pediatrician is very low rung as far as medicine. I’m sure Tom was raised well, as he said, but the ‘70s was the last decade a pediatrician would have been able to raise three kids in an area like Highland Park. Economics changed a lot in the 1980s.

I found the interview extremely depressing. Plus: holy fuck do I hate hearing about what somebody eats for breakfast.

He drinks a gallon of water a day! Call me, Tom!

r268, he's never claimed to be a top exclusively. He says he started out as a top because everyone wanted him to be one because of his gigantic dick, but then after college he felt more comfortable as a bottom. He wanted to bottom more when he started with Falcon, but they insisted he only top (again because of thre monster dick) until he really pushed them to bottom for "California Kings."

He has a tattoo on the back of one hand now that says "Master Top" and another tattoo on the back of the other hand that says "Master Bottom," so he's clearly very comfortable in both positions.

I would guess as he got older it was harder and harder for him to get it up all the time to top. That thing is so huge that he probably passes out from blood loss every time it does get hard.

R251 the only reason that scene worked is because he was rock hard, which was rare for him (and still is, even in the age of Viagra and Cialis). I don't think anyone noticed any of the other crap he's reminiscing about.

NO, R271, he KNEW he was going to do more bottoming as he continued his documentary showing the maturing of a gay 30-year old man. It was ALL PLANNED OUT because he is an ARTISTÉ. Someday he will package up his many films and scenes and interviews and win an ACADEMY AWARD.

R263 are you still a hairless twink who looks 16?

R252 yeah I know some gay guys who hate the extreme ass closeups and such in most gay porn. It's not for everyone!

For artiste/porn actor/model/whore/insufferable intellectual - François Sagat is the gold standard.

R271 please, it's not that big. He has never been able to get hard very convincingly, even at his 30-but-look-18 age. Of course the condoms didn't help, but he no longer has that excuse. And in his Colt scenes it looks smaller than 10.5" and he's wearing a cock ring to boot.

Wonder if the drug use started at a much earlier age than he seems to indicate which may have damaged some things.

If you look at someone like Danny D. who has a bigger cock than him, the scenes he did with guys as Matt Hughes where he's wearing a condom he doesn't get that hard for very long (although he still is harder more than Tom Chase). Now that he is Danny D, and no longer wears a condom, and I guess has plentiful Cialis, he is as hard as a rock, and even shoots a lot more cum than he used to as a young guy. He doesn't wear a cock ring because he doesn't need one and his cock is still magnificent.

Whereas with Tom he seems to have even more problems now than before, looking at those Colt scenes. And the extra fat isn't making his cock any bigger.

If he looks even half this good today, I'd be very happy to occupy his time.

He's going to end up like Erik Rhodes.

R278 there's pics of him closer to today in this thread. He now has a huge amount of tattoos, is fatter with less muscle, and his cock is smaller.

R276 he's one of those porn stars I was never attracted to at all and would avoid any scenes with him in it. I don't know why - he had the complete package, aside from the stupid skull tattoo. Just something about him was a turnoff.

R280 yes a turnoff. But he worked that angle and probably has more than "five figures" in "investments".

His parents sound cold and maybe the keeping up appearances type, but on one hand he was happy that he emotionally cut his dad off at 5, but then seemed remorseful that he kept it up for 20 years. Also the mother throwing him out because he said he read the Bible sounds like a exaggeration.

He sounds like a lot of rich/upper middle class kids I grew up with whose parents threw money at them early on because they were self involved or thought money could fix things and spoiling them well into adulthood and stunting them emotionally. Then the kids blamed the parents because they had a hard time with relationships or employment.

Tom never grew up.

R281 I was talking about Sagat. I actually liked Tom and thought he was cute when he was younger, but only found him jackoff-worthy in the one scene where is is rock hard (sorry I keep mentioning that, but it was his best scene). I don't find his hairy Colt persona or his overly-tattooed self now that hot, although I know others like that sort of thing.

I understood you meant Sagat. I posted Sagat as the gold standard of arty "intellectual" (false) porn whore. Insufferable.

I feel kinda sorry for that guy he lives with that he has sex with and is friends with - but not lovers! I would not be surprised if that was a one-way condition imposed by Tom and the guy has fallen into the narcissistic-enabler trap where he bends to Tom's whims.

R284 Hah, yeah I remember some interviews with Sagat and thought that was just him being French because they mentioned he was an artist (or something like that, it's been awhile).

[quote] [R271] please, it's not that big.

Oh Mary, do you really think we do not have eyes?

It's BIG.

Yes, that picture was already posted above in r278. And it is rarely that hard. It's 10.5". I've seen (and had) bigger that were actually hard. He is much older now, as well, as that picture is from his Colt years.

I’m the first one to scoff at bullshit cock size but I definitely think Tom is one of the big dick all stars and is probably slightly over 9” maybe 9.5”

Oh Dawson at r287, we well know that only the Washington Monument is big enough to satisfy your enormous gaping hole.

10.5" is indeed [italic]quite[/italic] big for those of us non-mutants.

He claims it's 10.5" above, I think Falcon claimed it was 11", but I don't actually think it's 10.5" either.

R289 for those of us who actually have sex and don't just look at still photos of porn stars, we appreciate large cocks that can stay hard!

Only tops make comebacks. Who wants to see a comeback from an old bottom (like his scene partner Kevin Williams) ?

Oh, FYI, Tom is also 5' 9".

That load count tat has to be the most unintentionally pathetic tattoo I have ever seen.

10.5 inches cannot possibly satisfy a hole so stretched-out that it threatens to swallow the entire neighborhood.

When you consider he's 5' 9" tall, that makes the 10.5" number even more unlikely. I could see a little over 9" at most.

He’s no John Holmes

Tom has a beautiful cock. Had. But I don't believe for a second it's 10.5".

More like 7.5”

That was just sad.

[quote]How was the sex? I always wonder what pron stars are like when they aren’t “on”

I've had sex with him relatively recently (within the past five years; it was a regular hook-up, NOT paid) and all I will say is that he initially seemed kind of reserved and professional and "on" as though there were a whole film crew watching, and he kept up a steady stream of porn-movie commentary, but eventually he relaxed a little and afterward he was chatty and honest and I liked him. He doesn't come off as "damaged" or anything like what people in this thread are saying; there's definitely a fair amount of drama with him but he's not dumb at all and he's proud of his porn career and he has a sense of humor about his life too. (I was never much of a porn watcher and didn't recognize him although I'm close to his age, and he seemed a little disappointed.) And that's all I'm going to say about it.

If you're close to his age I'm going to assume the missing info is that you hired him.

He knows his strengths and he uses them. Lockjaw would be a small price to pay...

R300, thank you!

This chick is crrrrayyyy

He needs to do those sessions with a therapist where you hit a pillow. A watermelon pillow.

R302 I can see his watermelon pillows!

This is a good scene from one of his early movies. The bottom is Jordan Young (a.k.a. TV casting director Billy Kemp).

[quote]If you're close to his age I'm going to assume the missing info is that you hired him.

I would totally admit it if I had hired him, but I didn't. He shows up on the apps occasionally. At the time he said he was looking for guys closer to his own age, and I'm in reasonably good shape and not a slob. He wasn't saying then that he was looking for younger guys. He doesn't give out face pics initially (or dick pics either) and as I said, I didn't recognize him even when he did. I just thought I was lucky.

I agree the "Load Count" tattoo is ridiculous--how he can have that and think he has no ego is beyond me.

"I would guess as he got older it was harder and harder for him to get it up all the time to top. That thing is so huge that he probably passes out from blood loss every time it does get hard."

That's not a thing. Huge dicked men can be fully erect without risk of passing out.

R308 you said you weren't going to say anything else! How can we believe you now??? 🤔🤔🤔

The fact that he's only 5' 9" makes all his photos showing "size" suspect. He's trying to come across as this powerful dom top "who also bottoms and is no less masculine" but he's closer to a woman's height than he is a man. It must be how Elliot Page feels.

I was just going to say--312 comments and not one person has pointed out how shorty he was! That "10.5-inch" dick is an optical illusion and a fantasy.

Anyone should be able to look at his erect cock at R278 and do the measurement. He's around 7" hard (measured from the top). The only way he would be 10 1/2" would be if he measured from his asshole.

Nice girth though. I'll give him that.

Note how he can't even keep it hard for very long in the video at r307. While he's giving him a BJ, Jordan is doing his best to make it look large by holding it the way he is and pulling all the way back so the floppy semi-erect cock looks like it's fully hard. (Also Jordan may look cute full-on but side profile he is not attractive).

Notice the filming taking place on the ground looking up at Tom so it looks like he is taller than he actually is. I think that's what Tom inadvertently means about Falcon knowing how to film porn - they know the angles to make him look taller than he is, and the angles and techniques to make his dick look bigger than it is.

I'm pretty sure his dick isn't 7 inches. That thing was much bigger than that.

Yeah at R307, he's struggling to stay hard. He grabs it himself and still can't get a full hard-on.

Vaguely remember an interview with Chase when he said in one of the Falcon films he couldn't get hard so they gave him an injection (OUCH) which left his cock lopsided because only one became ENGORGED.

I saw a piece of his scene with Lane Fuller when I was a horny teenager and thought it was the hottest thing I'd ever seen. It was the part where he'd shoved a dildo up Lane's ass and was jerking him off and really getting into it and looked so proud when he blew his load. I wanted so badly to have a guy do that to me. He seemed like one of my friend's hot dads. I always thought he was in his 40s when he shot that, but I guess he was a good deal younger at the time. So much for "I'm 30, but look 18."

If Tom wants to return to porn he should get an Only Fans.

Jack Wolf is doing well for himself and fucking the hottest pussy out there. Admittedly he is 6'5 and has a huge chest and arms but the face would benefit a balaclava and the shouts of faggot as he's orgasming is ridiculous.

Jack Wolf has a killer body and no ridiculous deforming tattoos, which is a breath of fresh air. He shouts faggot but then he kisses his bottoms tenderly after he cums.

Jordan Young's ass looks so good in his jeans at 2:47 in r307's video. I always loved Jordan. But thanks to the interview above, we know that Tom wasn't into him -- OR ANY OF HIS SCENE PARTNERS! -- except for Mike Branson.

[quote] He shouts faggot but then he kisses his bottoms tenderly after he cums.

Aww ... what a sweetheart.

He’s not the brightest bulb, but sounds like he’s found peace via “spirituality” and live out his life peacefully in PDX. That substack interview was a train wreck.

Jack Wolf has a stupid looking penis

Porn enthusiasts: who are the guys in this clip? I want to see the full length version

[quote] I saw a piece of his scene with Lane Fuller when I was a horny teenager and thought it was the hottest thing I'd ever seen. It was the part where he'd shoved a dildo up Lane's ass and was jerking him off and really getting into it and looked so proud when he blew his load. I wanted so badly to have a guy do that to me. He seemed like one of my friend's hot dads. I always thought he was in his 40s when he shot that, but I guess he was a good deal younger at the time. So much for "I'm 30, but look 18."

According to iafd, Tom was 35 when he filled that scene.

If you look at his scene with Jordan Young linked above, which was one of the very first scenes he did just four years before the Lane Fuller scene, he was skinny when he started, and so he really did look younger than he was when he freshly started (I could certanly buy him in that scene with Young as a very ripped college student). But it looks like when he started he soon after did a lot of steroids and hugely increased his muscle mass, which made him genuinely look his age in just a year or two.

I've always loved that scene with Lane Fuller too, although a friend of mine who has done some freelancing in the gay press said he discovered that (as sounds like was per usual with Tom Chase) the two actors did not get along during the shoot at all.

I think Tom only really got along with scene partners if they were butch-looking and hypermuscular, like Mike Branson and Adriano Marquez: that is, like his ideal of himself. Supposedly Tom and Adriano continued to have sex together on the set for hours after they wrapped shooting their scene for "Heatwave"--but if you see the scene, you can clearly tell from Tom's crazy eyes he was meth'ed up out of his mind when he filmed it.

Jack Wolf looks like he's had a face transplant, or like Dr. Frankenstein had a faggy monster.

Jordan Young was very hot in that scene. In fact, he does all the work while Tom Chase who just stands there like a dildo. Jordan is one of the few models who actually went on to have a decent career in Hollywood after his porn stint.

Is Jack Wolf gay?

He sure looks it. Does anyone know anything about him. I'm totally hot for Jack.

Jack Wolf has an amazing body, although it has clearly been shaped by massive steroid use. His cock is a bit strange, because it looks very much like it was a long skinny cock that he thickened by injecting artificial stuff into the shaft (the glans is much smaller).

A weird thing about his videos is that they're usually filmed at his apartment, which has a disgusting old cracked black rubber sheet covering the mattress--that rubber sheet has clearly seen better days a long, long time ago, so you wonder what's been spilled on it over the years.

[quote] Jordan is one of the few models who actually went on to have a decent career in Hollywood after his porn stint.

I can't find him on imdb.com What did he do after his porn stint? Did he perform under another name?

Jack Wolf is also covered in what look like tiny liver spots. He and Matthew Figata both have a fit and jacked/old and busted thing going on.

R333, he's not an actor—he went into TV casting.

R333 Billy Kemp

I would like to see him challenge Dawson to a bareback gangbang with creampies and swallowing.

I don't want him in me, quite deeply.

R336 he cast people for game shows?

sillybillythings on Instagram.

R188 I hope that you are physically attractive, because I want to spend the rest of my life with you. OMG. I DIED.

This is the best thread EVAH in the history of DL OP. It litterally changed my life. I never had a better time. I laughed more than I ever suspected I could. THANK.YOU. (that being said, I would still crawl over broken glass for miles just to kiss TOM CHASE foot. intolerably sexy creature. Especially in his hirsute bear phase. YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

r339 Last credit was in 2008? I'm thinking Billy "Jordan Young" Kemp needs to re-enter porn. Those 2 should film together again

^ If they could make themselves look like they did 20 years ago, I’d watch!

Billy looks great. Tom... not as much.

I mean...come on...even if he was 120 yo and in a wheelchair, I would

What's sweet Billy look like now?

The WATERMELON PILLOW affair is Pasta Draining for the XXIst century. WOW. It's the gift that won't stop giving. It's an instant classic. It's everything you've ever wanted to read on DL. It's a thing of such epic proportion and magnitude it's on a par with the Faye's wire hanger meltdown. It's THAT good. I can't get over it. It's bringing new meaning and perpective to my life. I'm experiencing a reading orgasm that I've never never felt before...yes. That being said, with all the snark and ridicule that it carries, let me make something very clear. If Tom Chase were anywhere within 3 miles of me, I would gladly swim accross a pool of diarrhea just to worship the groung he's walked on Still. It gives DL CATNIP a whole new meaning and dimension and raises so many "bad parenting "questions..(why would a 5 yo have enough pocket money to buy a watermelon pillow for daddy ? how was he alone in the store with nobody telling him that it was a bad idea, etc ...)

I loved how he claimed that he is "not a good bottom, actually" and how he is "naturally a top" and how he "never seeks it out," but will bend over for a MASCULINE friend who needs release. But then, he says he will ONLY return to porn if he gets topped by a TWINK.

He claims his father was toxic and a huge narcissist and he had to put up a wall to survive when he was a child. Then, at the end of the interview, he says his biggest regret is shutting his father out of his life when he was 5.

He claims to make $100,000 training during a "good year." But then, he says he "fits his training clients" in between his chicken and yams at 3:00 and his chicken and rice and broccoli at 5:30.

He claims the owner/founder of COLT not knowing he was Falcon's biggest star. Would someone in the industry be that clueless? Back then, there were tons of porn magazines, like Unzipped and Manshots and Adult Video News that you know the head of a studio would check out.

And his fetish and obsession about masculinity is a 9 (out of 10) on Roxane Gay's Exhaustion Scale. "I loved Boston because the men were so masculine!" "My first shoot with Falcon was awesome because of the COOL MASCULINE ENERGY!" "Bottoming really brings out my masculine side!"

Jesus Christ.

R349 Please leave me out of this mess

Sad last days.

Forgot one thing...

TOM CHASE ON ACTIVISM:

"I wanted to be a part of the movement to set [gay people] free. My friends were involved in ACT UP, demonstrating in the streets, which was not my way. I figured that if I made porn, the people from my upper-middle-class background would have to deal with it."

[quote] I wanted to be a part of the movement to set [gay people] free.

Are we trapped like fireflies in a Mason jar?

I made porn for political reasons, Not at all because I'm a dirty whore with an exhibitionist complex , it was a very conscious decision, with a career plan, and it all went as planned to this day, down to every single detail, even my years long crystal meth addiction. and Daddy would be proud of me if he knew. Yes, he would be proud that I was good at something for 15 years. He would.

"I figured that if I made [Company], the people from my upper-middle-class background would have to deal with it."

Does anyone still wear a condom?

Was Tom's watermelon pillow considered a dirty pillow? What would Marge White have to say about this?

Can you imagine just starting your sex life, with all the struggle of coming out and all, and immediately catching AIDs ??? I'm a little younger than Tom, So I came of age after the peak of the crises, but I was TERRIFIED. I started fucking in the late 80's but I had my first ever experience WITHOUT a condom less than 10 years ago

I don't doubt that he is HIV+. It would not surprise me if that was connected to his later in life addiction to drugs.

R358 he says in the interview that he got infected in 1989

Yes, I'm confident that's what he says, and I'm confident it's true.

Did his father ever make him wear a dress and made him display his puny cocklette?

Maybe it was the crochet pillow...

R361 I'm sure it was obvious early on that his peeny was ANYTHING BUT puny. I wonder if Daddy was threatened, of jealous. How big was Daddy btw ? any clue ?

On top of his otherwordly gorgeous body and bestially, stupid, lascivious , irresistible facial expression, he has the most beautiful skin. It looks like silk. or satin. Sun-kissed satin.

R364 Which he destroyed with all that ghastly ink.

I don't mind the tats as much as I mind the facelift. People should never. But then I'm into older guys

I don't think he could afford a facelift. It looks more like fillers probably to mask the facial wasting from the HIV drugs.

I agree with r367, although I wonder if his meth years did some ravaging to his face too.

If we each made one of these and sent it to him, would it wound, or heal?

"FACIAL WASTING FROM AIDS DRUGS"

Portland is a very odd place to end up if you want to be a bodybuilding coach and pal around exclusively with bodybuilder fuckbuddies. There aren't a lot of them in this town.

I enjoyed the pictures in the link R346 provided. He is celebrating masculinity with a freedom many of us do not share. Maybe Playgirl and Numbers/Torso/Blueboy models celebrated it, but Tom Chase embraces his male form to the highest level.

The link is repeated here.

[quote] “I figured that if I made porn, the people from my upper-middle-class background would have to deal with it."

He is very confusing.

Does he mean he expected his parents’ conservative friends to be aficionados of gay porn?

And he wasn’t even performing under his real name.

[quote] He is celebrating masculinity with a freedom many of us do not share. Maybe Playgirl and Numbers/Torso/Blueboy models celebrated it, but Tom Chase embraces his male form to the highest level.

So much MARY!-ness in order to celebrate his masculinity!

[quote]”I immediately started working on my emotional and psychological self, all of the work I had to put aside during my 20s and 30s in order to make quality porn.”

My goodness. So, I guess making tacky, cut-rate porn instead would have hastened his personal growth. Tragic!

^^^Also, he didn't even do that many films in the 90s and 00s, and the ones he was in only have usually one scene from him, which each took only one day to film.

Although of course we cannot discount all the hours he spent in preparatory acting study with Uta Hagen...

He was just a little too nelly for me to get off.

R352 he's a modern-day Che Guevara! I bet he really made those upper middle-class people reconsider their opinions on gay people, who I am sure watched his films for some reason and recognized him because he used an alias instead of his real name!

His "documentary of a gay man coming to terms with things by fucking guys/getting fucked" will soon be up for a special Lifetime Achievement Academy Award, I have no doubts!

He really is the biggest narcissist. Is there a term for people who retrofit grand reasons for doing the things they've done as a way to excuse something taboo / elevate them to something much more in their minds?

I wonder if he ever told his parents he did porn. It seems like he is the type who might have just to piss his parents off, but since he got an inheritance I'm assuming he didn't.

[quote] He’s a modern-day Che Guevara!

this made me laugh [bold]: )

A few thoughts : I never knew until this thread that watermelon pillows even existed, and it's a THING. They come in all shapes and sizes. R369, if I had Tom's address, I wouldn't waste my time sending him a watermelon pillow; I would book a flight to portland and offer myself instead. R375 it's tragic yes, but these people need reasons not to kill themselves I guess. I read an interview of fellow vintage porn heroe Aiden Shaw some years ago. As a teenager, I thought he was the most beautiful thing I'd ever see. I even had a rose tatooed on my shoulder as a tribute to his beauty. Yeah...I know...anyway, he's still escorting, he's been HIV+ for decades and he looks 275yo, when he's only slightly over 60. Oh and he's a poet too. He writes. poetry. that hasn't been published so far. He was rambling about how, when he goes to bed with a cllient, he's putting back humanity into mere numbers, social status and anonimity, like some king of humanitarian sex angel who sees beyond social barriers and more incoherent stuff, and he concluded by : "so you see, putting humanity back into numbers is a far cry from prostitution"...R372 I see what you mean, yes he is a needy bottom and a MARY and all of that, but also, he IS celebrating masculinity in these pictures, as in, the male body, a gorgeous, fully developped, hairy, muscled, sensual male body, with a drug- induced freedom that is mouth watering. And yes, I am convinced that he thinks, or thought at the time, that his upper class consevative parents would somehow admire him secretely for his braveness and gorgeousness, and fucking skills. He even thinks to this day that his Daddy, his Watermelon pillow hating Daddy would be proud of his (high quality) porn career...He's very sensitive.....I love

"close to 60".

As in 5 years past 60?

I'vE SeNt A wAteRmEloN PiLloW tO DaDdYyyY...SayIn'...I...LuUuvV...YoUou........

Aiden...

This fool is high as fuck.

Oh yeah, so masc & so butch. He’s just humoring the effeminate bottoms!

“I was a boy who wanted to sleep with men. I would have slept with my gymnastics coach if I could have. When I discovered NAMBLA [the controversial North American Man-Boy Love Association, which apparently barely exists anymore], it made sense to me. An older man with a younger boy doesn't disturb me, because I know that if the boy is into it, it's a very good maturing situation for him. It's definitely what I wanted.”

That’s disgusting. I’m sure he’s got a few underage skeletons in his closet.

R383...yes please.....soooo sexy.

[quote] Portland is a very odd place to end up if you want to be a bodybuilding coach and pal around exclusively with bodybuilder fuckbuddies. There aren't a lot of them in this town.

Where should one go then ? (asking for a friend)

R385 I can relate to that and believe me I'm utterly disgusted by the pedos, but when I was a child, I was lusting for the sexy grown up males. It was soooo embarrassing. I would have had sex with my dad, uncles, gym teachers, random hot strangers etc. I'm still attracted to older males even at my age (pushing 50)

Chase is a mess. He looked best in his Colt years, but even then, without the fur and the beard, he would have been an average-looking guy, but with a gym membership. He's never grown beyond the entitlement of a well-off background and is probably a therapy failure, regardless of what he says.

R389 I beg to differ sir. While he was not classically handsome, he was very sexy and attractive, striking looking. He would stand out in a crowd. I think he had a handsome visage

Also I have a question. In my book, you have roomates until your late 20s at the most. Why does he have a roomate? Is it a choice, or can't he afford his rent ? do many of you fellow elders have roomates ? (don't get me wrong, no judgment here, it's an honest question, I'm really falling a little for this sexy sensitive walking disaster of a musclebear)

He sounds broken.

If you live in an expensive city, you might have roommates well past 30 Some cities have a subculture of that.

A variation on this------DC famously has "group houses". where there are likely to be multiple people sharing rent and often someone is over 30.

Will everyone chill about the fucking watermelon pillows?? It's getting a bit played out, like "BEARKING" was five minutes later.

R391 It sounds like the roommate might be paying the rent.

R391 he's not tall enough to be a musclebear, he's more of a musclecub.

OK R393. WOW. I live in the middle of nowhere, but the rent for my nice 2 bedrooms, spacious flat is 350 $/month, and I'm sure glad that I don't need to have a roomate at 52 yo!

R389 I don't think he's been to therapy, maybe in his childhood? He would likely be helped by medication, as this goes beyond mere narcissism.

[quote] he's more of a musclecub.

good enough for me

So is the term roommate now code for fuck buddy?

In my day, I didn't fuck my roommates!

R397 that's an amazing price, live anywhere near a city and it's a minimum of $1k a month for a shack, and goes up, way up from there.

R400 Tom only has fuckbuddies. Everyone around him has to fuck the Tom

[quote] that's an amazing price,

R401 I know! I was very lucky to have it. Then again it's in the middle of a no man's land, with fields and cows and such, but there is a mall nearby, and a biggish city 1/2 h away. but most importantly, I have 2 bedrooms...2 bedrooms Tom, think about that (wink wink)

Here is Gordon. Tom's roommate, friend, fuckbuddy, whatever. Seems like a normal, stable guy. Maybe he's a stable force in Tom's life.

Is Gordon a performer as well?

R405 No. From his social media he has a "normal" job.

Gordon looks like he's been fisted way more than he would like to admit

I hope Gordon doesn’t let Tom on his computer.

Poor Gordon, unrequited love, always Tom's "Friend".

I'm 100 0000 X million times more attractive than Gordon, it's soooooooo unfair

I think part of the reason Tom wants a small twink to be a daddy to is because he can control them easier and make them dependent upon him. He's likely worried about dying alone and wants someone he can manipulate who will do things for him and be addicted to him. Much easier with younger, inexperienced guys.

[quote] Also I have a question. In my book, you have roommates until your late 20s at the most. Why does he have a roomate? Is it a choice, or can't he afford his rent ?

Portland is incredibly expensive, and rents are ridiculously high. Lots of people in Portland who do not have high salaries have to live as roommates. (I would not take Tom's claim of clearing $100K in a year as a personal trainer very seriously, given Tom's obvious penchant for exaggerating in order to glorify himself.)

But: from what it sounds like, since he describes Gordon as more or less his dearest lifelong friend, and is also clear they fuck together as well as live together, it's clear that Gordon is actually in fact (if not in name) Tom's romantic partner/common-law husband. But it also sounds like Tom is incapable of saying that, since he has this scenario about one day finding the perfect ephebe to marry and fuck. It sounds like Tom is not willing to call Gordon his partner, and Gordon's gets to live with (and have sex with) Tom regularly that way by putting up and not complaining.

[quote)He's likely worried about dying alone and wants someone he can manipulate who will do things for him and be addicted to him. Much easier with younger, inexperienced guys.

I beg to differ here. I've been called an imbecile and a sucker well into my 50s. I've been know to pay the rent of guys who wouldn't even let me suck their dick. Call me Tom

I don't think Tom can afford to be a Sugar daddy!

R413 Yes, younger people in general being easier to manipulate and control does not mean that some older people can't also be easy to manipulate and control.

(quote] $100K in a year as a personal trainer

maybe that includes the hanky panky, not just the real training

I don't see Tom advertising as an escort in Portland, though--he's not on rentmen or the other usual sites.

It sounded like he was still escorting from what he said in the interview, but at his age and for how long he's lived in Portland he likely has a number of long-term clients that he tends to without having to advertise for more.

He's getting worried about who will feed him soup and change his diaper as he ages--hence the need for the twink.

[quote]He's getting worried about who will feed him soup and change his diaper

yooooooooohooooooooooo TOOOM, right here baby

Gordon sounds like a self-loathing doormat.

Gordon is happy to be close to the legend. he's having his 15 minutes, and if he outlives Tom, there might even be a book. Or so he hopes

I HATE Gordon

He's tragic. Porn stars should be seen and not heard.

he's ready for his comeback

The last thing anyone wants is a whore with an opinion.

[quote] The last thing anyone wants is a whore with an opinion.

Zat eez right. Whore like me know her place. I keep quiet except to ask man for more moneys to touch poosey and anuses.

[quote]The last thing anyone wants is a whore with an opinion

and a watermelon pillow

Tom's photo on his FB opage is pretty fucking amazing, even with his tattoos.

Muriel doesn't like it if we post from social media pages, but it you search for "Tom Chase" you'll find it. He's in a swimsuit and his body is incredible.

[quote] Also I have a question. In my book, you have roommates until your late 20s at the most. Why does he have a roomate? Is it a choice, or can't he afford his rent ?

Humans are social animals. I’ve gone through periods of renting alone, with friends, owning a home - always single. (Don’t get me started in my childhood, and intimacy issues!!)

They’re all enjoyable in different ways. But it’s perfectly nice to have a roommate or housemate as long as you enjoy their company and the space isn’t small.

[quote] Tom's photo on his FB opage is pretty fucking amazing, even with his tattoos.

WHERE???? I can't find him

^^ “don’t get me started ON my childhood…”

At least Tom didn't have Joan Crawford for a mother!

[quote] At least Tom didn't have Joan Crawford for a mother!

is that the option ?

r430, try tom.chase.1257 on FB

How do we know it's HIM ?

It's fascinating that on FB he not only follows multiple bodybuilders (as i would expect) but also FB pages for Leslie Jordan, Lucie Arnaz (!!), Jame Lee Curtis, Valerie Bertinelli, Michael Feinstein, and Joan Crawford.

He is truly One of Us!

[quote] How do we know it's HIM ?

Sworn affidavits and DNA evidence, Rose.

Clarification, what does it mean when someone puts "studied journalism at --- University"? Did they take one class, read a newspaper a few times a week, what?

I only put my academic credentials if I was awarded a degree. Yeah, I took an East Asian studies class once, but I wouldn't put that down on my resume.

If it doesn't list a graduation date, it means they dropped out but want it to look like they didn't to fool people not paying attention.

At least he makes a point of noting that he's fully vaccinated, so he hasn't convinced himself that steroids, pot, or therapy-free personal enlightenment are the key to broad spectrum immunity to diseases.

That's true, he's at least not a total new age douche who thinks he can cure himself of anything with the power of positive thinking. Although I am sure he thinks he could if he just wanted it bad enough. But he chooses not to. For now.

He's not on any of the escort websites in town and he keeps a very low profile here in Portland. I seriously doubt he's escorting.

He's gorgeously sexy on his FB page, but all his friends are crocodile-skinned HIV+ hardcore looking bodybuilders fistees, it's scary. I don't have any gay friends, I'm not use to that

It’s an old picture of him. Not current.

[quote]try tom.chase.1257 on FB

Eww, Facebook is for olds

[quote] I don't think he could afford a facelift.

Guys like him always get the things they want by persuading one of their wealthy tricks to pay the bill. As long as he made his cock and his asshole available for their pleasure I'm sure they were/are plenty of wealthy men willing to splash out (pun intended) to buy him pretty things.

late 50 year old men are NOT successful whores. What planet do you vampires live on?

Let me clue you in on the reality. Tom Chase likely lives a very grim life of deceit, delusion and dysfunction. And his dick must be broke from decades ago. It never functioned all that well when he was youngish.

There are tons of older men who would gladly pay for a fuck by Tom Chase. I don't get it, consider how he looks now as he's is no longer a compliment to my palate. But plenty would allow him to mount them in lust.

With his 60yo rubbery dick? Dream on.

Too old for bottoming

I wanted to suck on Tom Chase's cock and he farted in my face!

Give it a rest, hun.

[quote] Let me clue you in on the reality. Tom Chase likely lives a very grim life of deceit, delusion and dysfunction.

But that's all only because of the watermelon pillow. If his dad had accepted the watermelon pillow with his heart, all would be happy and hunky dory for Tom. So STFU. You cruel

Yes, the watermelon pillow was like Rosebud in Citizen Kane. It was symbolic of the moment his life was changed forever. 🍉

I should know. I had a waterpillow moment myself, the day my dad destroyed my faith in him and our relationship FOR EVER. It only took a moment, after which I built the wall, and lever let him reach again. I made the conscious decision to never be a source of contentment for him. to Always disappoint him. And I destroyed myself in the process of course. I understand Tammy. It was through a soccer game, not a watermelon pillow , but it worked just the same

Surprising to find out that a rosebud wasn't his Rosebud!

The Watermelon pillow song

[quote]He's getting worried about who will feed him soup and change his diaper as he ages--hence the need for the twink.

Pity he can't see past his living-to-120 delusion to realize that Gordon will be faithfully by his side until the steroids make his heart explode.

Here's what the soundtrack of his life looks like on LP

His scene with Carlos Morales and two other bottoms is so excellent.

[quote]His scene with Carlos Morales and two other bottoms is so excellent.

Carlos Morales is so high he looks barely conscious.

At one point he looks like he remembers he forgot to set the VHS to record Knots Landing.

Team Tom -- all the way.

I like how much traffic this thread is getting.

If Tom actually sits down to write a book about gay-porn insight, i think this thread proves there's plenty of interest. Especially by all these haters who get all riled up.

I'm surprised the "All Gay Porn Stars Are Secretly Bisexual!" Troll hasn't accused Tom of being a secret bisexual.

You can’t be bisexual when your actual sex exclusively involves putting monkeypoxed dicks up your ass and making fisting love to twink hole.

R463 Except this thread is the same nine people.

R460 - don't you EVER give me a watermelon record again!

r237 Very few estates are large enough to owe any tax, much less 50%. There has always been a generous exemption that has grown steadily since Reagan but under Trump it ballooned to around 12 million (24 million for married couples) so in 2020 that meant less than .1% of estates had to file an estate return and only .04% owed any amount at all. That is without any of the legal tax shelters of various trusts/partnerships that have been devised over the years to shield dynastic wealth in this country....

Any update ? Has Tom be signed by a studio for his big comeback ?

He was fine till he roided up. Did not suit him one bit.

R470 I think he's gorgeous

[quote]Carlos Morales is so high he looks barely conscious...At one point he looks like he remembers he forgot to set the VHS to record Knots Landing.

I LOVE how pithy DLers are.

It's such a random reference, yet immediately conjures an (accurate) image of the expression.

and the times, R472, the times

[quote] Has Tom be signed by a studio for his big comeback ?

I hate that word! It's a return!

"TOM DESMOND" would actually be a good name for our new, self-actualized Tom.

[quote]Has Tom be signed by a studio for his big comeback ?

He's considering offers from RKO, Republic, Monogram, and Selznick.

I'll only take MGM

I think massive tattooing is a form of exhibitionism. It seems that guys who cover their bodies with tats always more often than not like to wear as few clothes as possible when others are around, just so they can be stared at.

[quote] I'll only take MGM—Tom

More stars than there are in heaven!

[quote] It seems that guys who cover their bodies with tats [bold]always more often than not[/bold] like to wear as few clothes as possible when others are around,

Oh, [italic]dear.[/italic]

Any news of Watermeloon Tom and his big comeback yet ?

I got an email from the Caftan Chronicles - the guy has followed up his Tom interview as it was so popular.

He includes a preview in the email.

Colton Ford made a comeback video.